wahyuni

2011-05-21T03:51:00.001+08:00

It's 3.37am..Had the intention of finishing ALL my work before helping mummy out later...but somehow or rather,my mind is like 'jamming' up inside..can no longer take in neither can it produce answers to the question for my project,tutorial and lab practical questions.. my sister's boyfrend.i've never met someone whom is willing to give it all in a relationship or rather shud i say it's rare to find a guy who does so..7 years of their realtionship,me and him are no different from a sibling and a bestfrend.He's such a nice guy..He tries to be with my sister no matter how tired,moody,sad,angry or happy..It's like as though nothing else matters to him when he's with my sister.I'm not sure if my other sibling does notice the little things he does for my Sis Nad.. He would always try to be with my sister.When sis Nad is sick in the middle of the night despite his night shift and him being tired,he would still make his way to our house to take sis Nad to the hospital and accompany her. When sis Nad intends to go out and get even just A stuff or two,he would wanna accompany her willingly. He would also take the INITATIVE to take sis Nad out for dinner or supper after work even though he knows that a long day will be waiting for him the next day. He would also text my sis every part of the day to ensure that she has eaten,she is okay and everything is fine..He would also open up his pair of ears willingly and hear my sister sharing or complaining about work,frends,personal stuff and many more... 7 years together and yet it seems that they've only been together for a few months.. with him showering my sister with his sincerest and endless love. It really suprise and amaze me because things and sacrifices done like this are usually the first few months or rather the first 1-2 years of a relationship.But it's already been 7 years. He is someone whom does not only say that he wants to be with my sister but in fact he SHOWED it..no doubt that he loves my sister and i can count on him to take care of my sister few years down the road.insya'allah!amin!The commitment,initiative is all there..and he need not go around telling people what he has done for my sister for people can see it for themselves... Okay,back to where i was,school has been very hectic and somehow or rather im thankful that im able to balance everything..Due dates for assignments and quizes are all drawing nearer. I've been trying very hard to be consistent with my work for i believe whatever i put it, will be whatever that i get and insya'allah i'll get the GPA which i've always aimed for this semester.AMIN! Sweetheart..Sweetheart has been my pillar of support..In terms of studies and all..When i'm on the verge of giving up,she would encourage and motivate me to continue striving and not to give up..For there's no way one can reach up the ladder with both hands in their pockets..Not only that, she also has always been there for me in terms of emotional support..and never fail to lend a shoulder and opening up her pair of ears whenever i tend to pour out how i feel. I appreciate for the fact that she always gives me idea and suggestions even though at times not..her pair of ears and shoulders are MORE then enough to me...She also NEVER fail to tickle me pink with each passing day..one of the few reasons why i love being around her..She knows what kind of position im in and never fail to paint a smile on my face which without her realising makes me forget about all the sorrows deep inside me...She's MORE then a frend to me..She's even closer to me then my own family..I see her almost everyday for long hours in school and when im home it's like my social sourronding is cut off..mum is busy with her work,abg with his jamming,kak ain and sis nad with both work and partners,adik..adik is the only one whom i always talk to the most but not as much as compared to sweetheart..Thats one of the reason why sweetheart is no different from my own kin..To me she's not only like a sister but everything...The only one whom understads me in and out...The only one whom can tolerate me of my lame jokes and my everything..and i hope the person in her will grow in my boyfrend,the pillar whom i can lean on,pour out my sorrows or when laughing my ass off..it'll still be there for me..and hopefully as time goes by...things will change...because for now,i know i can only count on him..because im not that close to my family... I've tried.i've tried to share all my feelings with my boyfrend but it somehow seems 'uninteresting' or to put it in a harsher way...he wun be interested to do so...When we meet,we met for only a few hours to carry out our plans and by then..there will be no time to 'share'...He's busy with family,training and work..Especially work lately..I rarely get a text message from him or rather after a text message or two being sent out,i wud only get it back a few hours later..ask me and i say...i miss him badly deep inside:'( and at times it does disappoint me..the one that i thought i could get the love showered from to compensate for the love which i never had since young is not there..But i cant possibly blame him..he also has his duties to carry out..Never the less i love him for wat he was in the past,wat he is now and wat he will be in the future.. I know wat it feels like not to be loved by closed ones especially family..And since he has it all,i try to complete it as a whole...trying my very best to put in initiative and commitment in our realtionship..I really-really love him deep in my heartand i hope somehow or rather he can feel it.Ask me and i'll say he's my priority to to everything..i would do anything just to be with him...despite me being tired,angry,sad or in any emotion state...for nothing else matters when im with him...

2011-05-15T09:11:00.002+08:00

This weekend is a so called ''bonous'' to me.. Mum didn't ask me to tag along to the shop.. Nevertheless,i didnt took it for granted for i know weekdays will pass and weekends will be here again in no time and im very sure that i will have to help mum when the next weekend comes.Thus,yesterday i went to sweetheart's(Liyana) house and did my Textiles and Fundamentals..Did the research followed by the decoration for my Lifestlye sewing cover..There's still alot more to cover thus im trying to work very hard to complete it by today so that my mind will be carefree since im not sure when can i get an opportunity like this again.But somehow or rather i just cant bear it at the thought of mum working at the shop.i pity her.

it's not about the money,money,money...

2011-05-08T16:13:00.006+08:00

Money..wat is money?? Mum has been busy finding money day and night that without her realising she's neglected her children.I still remember when i was young,mum would drive her van to her work place with me and little brother sleeping behind of the van with two matress laid for us.When mum is in the shop,the back door of the van wud be open for air to come in so me and little brother wun't be hot and as a little girl,i wud constantly peek at mum in the van when she's doing her work.As young as 11,i've been helping mum at her shop.And as young as 7,dad left mum.

Doing a catering business is like earning big bucks in no time.But somehow or rather i see no point in having thoes big bucks in ur hand and ur family is upside down on the other hand.Honestly,when i deliver food during the weekends,i cry in my heart.Not because i'm reluctant to help.I cry because i cant study when others are at home studying.I cry because others are spending time with their family whereas there i am at mummy shop facing the heat,controlling my emotions while being hurl vulgarities at times.And i also cry for mummy,because while i see other mummys spending time with their children,there my mummy is slogging off to find money.

Mum is rich and i mean way too rich and i wonder why is she still working so hard to find more money.I can say it's unfair to her and me and my siblings..It's time for her to retire,it's time for her to settle down,spent time with the family and shower herself with lots of luxuries..And if she does so,my siblings and i can also spent time with her and we can do our things..But that's not the case.money.money.money is all in her mind.she's too obsessed with money and i cant say i yearn the REAL love a mother wud give to their children.For i'm robbed of it since young,i've never really felt wat it's like to sit next to mum,joke with her,spent time with her,laugh with her and do everything with her and thinking about it just hurt so bad.

This is one of the main reason why i wanna study hard,get a good education,good career so i can break out of this.I'm tired and i pity mum and little brother.For little brother always have to hep mum with me during the weekends without fail.I told myself that when i have a family one day,i wun neglect my family especially my children.For as a child,i how how it feels like to be robbed of a parent's love.It's something that one cant imagine.It just hurt so bad thinking about it.And i thought when i have that special someone in my life,the love that i've lost since young wud be filled once again.But i guess it's false hope.What passed nothing can ever make up to it.Whats more,he has his own family to care for..Ouh well,wat more can i ask for??i shud have gotten used to not being loved since young but somehow or rather i'm still in search for the love that i've lost.

Tired,yes i'm very-very tired.my weekends are burnt helping mummy out at the shop.Sometimes till night when it's busy.Even if i were to meet boyfrend,we'll meet in the evening for a short while.On monday,i have school from 9-6 in the evening and when i come back,i have religious class till 10.30pm afterwhich i'll be too tired to study that i head to bed straight.On tuesday i end school at 2pm and when i get home,i take a short nap and after which have my religious class again till 8.30pm.On wednesday i end school at 3pm but when i get home,by then i'll be extremely exhausted.So,i'll have a goood long lost nap if not i'll study...On thursday stat school at 9 till 6 in the evening and again by then i'll be too tired to study,even if i were to study,not much goes into my mind.On friday,i end school at 4pm..that is the day where i can really sit down and study for by then i'll no longer be exhausted.This are roughly my schedule at times i would put in some time for driving lesson and also boyfrend despite thoes busy and tiring schedule.

Mum is someone whom i daren't go against.Studies is something that im working hard for,to give me a good and secured future in time to come.Religious class is something which i hope one day it will lead me back to the right path.Boyfrend is someone whom i hope one day understands me in and out and would be able to lend me his sholuders and be there during time when i need him the most.That's the reason why my schedule every week is so packed.For all of them matters to me..mum,studies,religious class,boyfrend.

I really envy those family whom can spent their weekends together happily and go for holiday or picnic or any outing as planned.I also envy this someone,kak Maria my cousin.She's a fine pretty and elegant white lady.She doesnt have high education just till her N's.But her life now is...She got married when she's 23,have a child when she's 24..She dated her husband when she was 18 for 5 years before they got married.Her husband gave her a good life.They have a shelter over their head,a car to drive them around and the little one.They lead a simple and happy life though they are not rich.Besides that,kak Maria is also not working,her husband is the one whom is providing the family..Which i find kak Maria a lucky person to be with him..They always have family time during the weekends,go off for a holiday...What im trying to say is,wat is money??When u cant buy the love and the time that u cud have spent with ur family..

Well for now,i hope that when i have a family one day...It'll just be as simple as this...I dont ask to be shower with luxuries,i dont ask for a big car to drive,i dont ask for a big house to live in..All i ask for is...the love..which money cant buy...

Insya'allah.Amin.

An also a family which i've envy-ed.My boyfrend family.They live an average life and they are so close and happy together.Even to the extend when boyfrend is with his family,he can not message me the WHOLE day!!!gggrrrhhh..But still,i try to accomodate as i love seeing him spending time together with his family member..I've lack all those feeling that he has..And at times it just hurt when i tot i cud get the love which i never had since young to be showered from him but i just dont get it..I can say he's more to his family..yeap,which at times make me feel like as though i'm an extra in his life.At times i just want him to be with me but that's selfish because..just because i lack the family love which i never had since young till now,that doesnt give me the permission to rob him of his to..And i really admire how his parents brought them up.

Well,all in all,i hope few years down the road,when i have a career and a family..Everything would change...

Insya'allah.amin.

2011-04-21T18:39:00.002+08:00

Been thinking alot this few days..
Imagination running wild..
Thinking about the past,present and my future..
Especially.....
Things were so much beautiful back then..
and im trying to keep things to the way they are but it's not easy cos u need two hands to clap..
I just hope when school reopens,things will be much better...
I'll be occupied with school work and busy schedule..
For i know i have other things to chase in life..
If we're meant to be then we're meant to be no matter how BIG the obstacle we'll be going through..
Thus,i'm gonna stick to my stand..and shud there be any........
I know the one above is deciding the BEST for each and everyone of us..
Thus,i'll let it be as it is.Apart from that i'll also try to do my part to keep 'it' going.
Insya'allah,we'll gonna last...Cos i really-really-really have fallen deep..
Shud i fall out of love,it's gonna take me longer then the previous one before u..
And i seriously meant it,for shud anything goes wrong i've decided to just stick to my career until-until i've decided to settle down..But hopefully thats not the case..AMIN!!

And up till today my love for u will never change neither will it grow lesser for i'll only love u MORE with every air that i breath.i love u b:):)

2011-04-17T15:02:00.004+08:00

Well,school is starting soon..gonna spent my last week of holidays with love ones. For the upcoming semester,i just hope that i'll pull up my socks and buck up! No more enjoying and fooling around..Dating included!!Okay i'll be nicer..dating yes,but not always..I'm gonna work very hard and attain that GPA that i've long planned and wanting for..If others can do it why not.If others can balance between family,school,frends,relationships and attain EXTREMELY good results,insya'allah i can do it too!!all i have to do is endure..For,after this semester i'll be out to secondary school to teach for a semester!!my long live ambition since young:)And after i come back,2 more semester before i'll make it to NIE.Insya'allah!Amin!

Well,as for me and boyfrend..Allhamdullilah,everything is okay between us..Anger,Sadness,Disappointment,Enjoyment and all sorts of emotions i've been through while being in this relationship..it's not easy for me as it's my first(and insya'allah,the last) and im still trying to learn..i thank god for we're slowly opening up to each other..He's done much of it and im trying to do the same..but i believe that it'sn gonna take some time as im not the kind whom pours out my emotions..especially when im sad or extremly-extremly angry..for at the thought of it will just break me down whats more pouring it out..I see my future with him and i hope DEE-JA-VU happens!!!hehehehe:p Ask me to tell you about my family and i can tell you,it's gonna be a long journey...

Ask me if i'm happy and satisfied with wat i have now and i can tell you,it's gonna be confusing for you.. But at the end of the day all i know is i'm content with wat i have..

2011-03-09T18:21:00.003+08:00

wow..it's been long since i last 'wrote' on this blog..Been so busy with school especially exams and the so-called 'pre-orientation' thingy..Now i'm starting work tomorrow and next week i'll be leaving Singapore for Jakarta together with Simah and Nisa:)The thought of going there just excites me but come not to think about it...i just dont feel like going for...a few things are holding me back.And yes,one of the reasons is my boyfrend..I just cant bear to part with him..it already aches me even when he's not in my sight.Whats more being so-so-so far away from him...

I just wanna tell the whole world that i love my boyfrend no matter what!for his laughter,for his cranky-ness,for his soft-hearted-ness or rather for his everything!I love him for whom he is without any doubts or second thoughts.The H.M.P is over for us..thus i'm trying my best to adapt to the changes.It's not easy for me.For I've done so many things without him realising and i CHOOSE not to tell him for i dont want him to feel bad or guilty whenever i would do something for him..But few days ago,i just did tell him how i honestly feel and what i've done for him all this while and i hope i didnt hurt him in any way for i have no intention or rather wanna hurt my little baby..Ask me,and i'll honestly say i miss the old times.i really-really do.And i hope as time goes by,things will CHANGE FOR THE BETTER..insya'allah amin!!The only thing is, i hope at the end of the day..i'm not cheating myself when i say 'things will change for the better as time goes by'..And no matter how hard things are gonna get,i'll hold on tight to this relationship.

I love u sincerely with my wholeheart for who you are. May we last till eternity. Insya'allah.Amin.

2011-02-02T12:51:00.009+08:00

I thank god for the fact that 'he' chooses him to be with me.

& i hope he too feel the same way..

Somehow or rather..i'm not sure if things are suppose to be this way or am i asking too much??I'm just sad in a way or two for the fact that when u know you wanna see that someone so badly and in the end it was just a short one...knowing deep inside that if possible you wanna be with him by his side forever without him getting out of ur sight even for a minute..Wats even more sadden-ing is when u're with that someone,you have no idea or what to do,where to go for all that u have in ur mind is just to be by his side even if it means not doing anything or going anywhere and that someone too doesn't even know wat to do,which in the end leads to a short meeting..

If you ask me..i'm the type of person whom when i fall,i fall deep..real deep..

Just like how i fall previously before my current boyfrend came by to held his hand out to 'pick' me up once again...And now,i've fallen deep for my current one..that i see myself doing everything that i could just to make him happy even if in means along the way,something might or could happen to me.i put in initative,commitment,sincerity,honesty,trust,EVERYTHING into this relationship of mine..i'm trying to put in 101% into this relationship of mine..so that if one day when i look back,i know i did my best and i had been a good girlfrend to that someone and to look forward without any regrets..even when we know at times the other party can't fufill the 101%,at least one day if they looked back too,they tend to appreciate you more...

And people,when u're in a relationship..any kind of relationship be it parents,siblings,frends,boyfrends/girlfrends,always have the mind set to always give and never expect anything in return..in other words,doing it sincerely..cos when u dont,the relationship would never move forward for none is taking the initiative,wanting the other party to 'give' ferst..the picture would be very different if u were to just 'give' and 'give' and 'give'..things will just progress and move forward and when the person whom receives ur 'giving',i believe one day would realise how much u've done for them..

Well,on sunday,went to Johore with my boyfrend to fill his car fuel.we ate at pandan city,bought some cds after which fill his fuel before we headed back for singapore.when we reached singapore,he sent me home ferst...not knowing that i had bake for him a cake the previous day...he waited outside while i go get them..initially had planned to cut it at east coast park..but it was raining,so we had no choice but to cut the cake in the car instead..i bought for him ARAI raincoat and Renoma wallet..i hope he likes it..i HOPE,i'm the choosen one to celebrate with him for the rest of his birthdays...

*ta-ta*

2010-12-19T22:57:00.004+08:00

Boyfriend has left me for Greece-Dubai.. Sweetheart has left me for Beijing-Shanghai.. and in a few hours time,bestfrind will be leaving me fo L.A... *sigh*,my world just gets quiet-er without their presence:( But i believe they'll be back soon:) Well,i've been burying myself in stuffs like spring -cleaning my room,helping mummy out at the shop so as to occupy myself and also in hope that time will pass by quickly without me realising;)

Well 2morrow i'll be heading for the polyclinic at Central to have my eyes checked and to be transfered to hospital..initally wanted Changi hospital but mum requested for General hospital instead,if there shud be any surgery...and i believe somehow it would be a day surgery..

Wanted to inform boyfriend that i might be undergoing surgery but since that he's on a holiday i believe it's best if i were to tell him when he comes back as i've promise him to take care of myself and not worry about a thing back here when he's there... Well people,im tired and i wanna take a good nigfht rest before going for the check up tomorrow:)Good night beautiful people:)

*ta-ta*

2010-12-16T01:01:00.004+08:00

I believe this is gonna be a very-very long post?? First and foremost..I would like to thank Sis Nad for all that she has done to give me a pleasant surprise birthday party for the 2nd time.i believe her reason for doing it the 2nd time as the first one was somehow 'let away'??hehehe..Well,here's a summary of what happen on 3rd December 2010.. In school,girlfriends suprise me with chocolate truffle cake together with the company of birthday song at I.T Concourse..After the cake cutting ceremony,i was "bashed",bashed with the birthday cake half covering my face!!and yes,not forgetting the photo taking session..had lotsa-lotsa photo taken with my girlfriends..:) In the evening,the plan was to accompany boyfriend to have dinner and fetch his sister at the hotel.was getting ready around 7++ going to 8 when he messaged me and said "Baby you ready?hungry nie"..Met him at the bus stop and we went to central,to withdraw money...then while withdrawing money,his "brother" called him..requesting him to sent a few stuffs to a bbq pit..He was so "mad" as he was already hungry...but in the end,he still choose to do that kind favour to help his "brother"..went back to his place,took the guitar,camera and a few other stuffs...He then told me his "brother" asked to be there only around 9pm as he will be going to Ehub to get some stuffs....And so since my boyfriend is so the hungry,we went to Elias to get double cheese burger..but the Mac there was closed,so we went to White Sands instead...and yes,after getting the cheese burger,it was time we headed for Pasir Ris Park to pass his "brother's" stuffs..Offered to help him carry the stuffs to the pit..Well,the path was wet and the grass were extremely muddy..So,as we were reaching the pit,i was looking down on the grass for it was extremely muddy and each step i took it felt like as though i 'sink' in..Then i realised as i got nearer to the pit,it got quieter!Out of curiousity,i looked up and realised ALL of my friends were there!!It was my Pit!!A SURPRISE PIT!so much for his "brother" and acting to be "mad"...hehehehe...but it did work though as i fall fer it.... Cut my birthday cake with the presence of lovely siblings,boyfriend,friends...After everyone left the pit,boyfriend took up the guitar and sang a song for me...a song which he dedicated to me-a song which i told him it would be nicer if he had sang it to me instead...and yes,i cried in his presence and he wiped away those tears..Cos for all you know,he doesn't even know how to strum the guitar!He went through all the trouble to ask his friends to teach him and even better,he brought the guitar BACK to camp just to practice during his free time..I would be lying if i said i'm not touched or moved at all...The pit ended around 2++,then went to Ehub to catch a movie with him...Afterwhich,he drove me back home...reached home about 4++ in the morning..I was the happiest girl on that day for i never had so-so many present for my birthday in my entire life!So,thats about my 18th birthday! My exams just ended today...with all the hard work,i believe it somehow didnt pay off??hahaha,don't ask me why...I'm just glad it's all over and i'm so looking forward to tomorrow!!for tomorrow is already holiday!YAHOO!!!but BOOHOO to the fact that my boyfriend just left me for Greece and Dubai hours just as my started my holiday..I believe he's in the plane now..well i hope he'll have a safe journey to and for..and not only him,even my girlfriends are leaving me for L.A,Beijing-Shanghai,KL...Well,it's just left me and Fiqah back here in Singapore...thus i'll be going over to her place tomorrow to do our project and all...I guess thats all folks??hehehe... *ta-ta*

2010-11-29T17:08:00.003+08:00

Quizes,packed schedule and upcoming term test is robbing me of my leisure time. But however somehow i'm trying to make balance to it and i glad somehow i manage to. Well,the quizes are over!yeah... Just that,the term test is upcoming in about 1-2 weeks time..Boohoo!

Friday night,i went to meet my dearest boyfriend at Tampines interchange about 7.30 in the evening.He was from camp and i was from home...Meet up to get for Nysha's her birthday present..We walked for quite sometime before deciding to get for her a cute flora tank top:)However,while pondering over a few choices of which one to get for her,we had popeye's before we really bought the top..After which,we caught a movie and suprisingly,it was Harry Potter...worst,its 2 and a half hour straight!Cabbed back home together with him:)
Saturday night,he fetched me from the busstop together with Wal before we head to the void deck opposite Century Square to have a game or 2 while waiting for Emma...And together,the four of us fetched Kur at hougang before going to Haji Lane to celebrate the birthday:)Reached home around 2.30..Wash up and revise a lil bit on my B.N.F. till about 4am.

Sunday morning,help mummy out at her shop as usual...misplaced my spects that i find myself more of hindrance then of to help..ppffttt...Reached home,took a nap..Isham came over and it woke me up..showered before playing with him..Afterwhich,i took a nap AGAIN and yes,he never fail to give me a wake up call and i appreciate it:)for i had to study for my test today:)
Monday(today),wento the library around 9..thought or revising again for i slept not long after the last wake up call from Liyana..Was extremely dissapointed as i expected myself to do VERY-VERY well for this B.N.F paper however i screwed it up..well,a pass is better then nothing and it's no use crying over a spilled milk..
*ta-ta*
I NEED THE HOLIDAYS BADLY!!!!:(

2010-11-10T09:01:00.007+08:00

Friday:
My Deepavali was well spent with my sweetheart:)
Basically i spent the whole afternoon with him for shopping,late lunch,movie and we had our catch up session(as usual as i only see him once a week!)
And before he sent me home that night,we went over to Mizzy's place to collect Abg Wawan's birthday present:)
Saturday:
Started out my day early..
Packed my bag for i was leaving for Indonesia that very afternoon for my cuzzie's wedding reception.Left home about 11+ or rather 12..
Had Starbucks before leaving Singapore.
Reached there at about 4+..
had our late lunch first before we headed for the hotel "ocean pacific hotel"... Around 7pm,there was a dinner reception..
And yes,people thought i was the bride and my brother was ther groom.. hahahaha!!!(just because I was wearing a dress and my brother a coat) After the dinner,all my cuzzie's went fer clubbing..
I choose not to go despite them insisting of me following them(good girl!)
So i sat at the lobby alone,read the newspaper...I got so boared that i made a video of myself!(pathetic!)hahaha..
After which,had a walk to the nearby minimart with two of my cuzzies..bought drinks,cup noodle,ice-cream...ate the ice-cream outside the minimart before walking back to the hotel..
Reach the hotel,went back to the hotel room ate my maggie and watch tv all alone..hehehe..
Slept around 2+ going to 3.. shiok or wat..and they came back around 4 in the morning:)
Sunday:
Woke up early.
Had my breakfast quickly.
Afterwhich the make up artist make me up..
Went for the wedding reception and half way through we had to leave..
Leave for Singapore...
All in all,the trip was nerve-wrecking and heart-wrecking..
Maybe i'll blog about it in detail when i have the time(which i don't tink so)
So,thats how my long weekends were spent:)
*ta-ta*)

2010-11-03T15:58:00.006+08:00

Since last week,there was no school for me on wednesday's and so it is next week because of Hari Raya Haji:)
Today,I woke up early and made my way to ICA to collect my new passport. How i regretted not making an appointment.For 2 of my precious hours were wasted.After which,mrt-ed back to Tampines.decided to unwind myself.Thus i had a walk at Century Square and Tampines 1.And as expected!i splurge on clothes again!Temptation does kill!*sigh*School,okay..Just that my old habit is with me...Last minute!tsk-tsk-tsk.. Well,i have yet to eat for the whole day and suprisingly my stomach is 'good' today..hahaha!
Last Saturday,I went to Singapore Flyers with him and his friends:)After which,we headed for Spize at Rivervalley to have our supper..Sent Nysha,Ayid and Aib back home before we went to our usual spot to catch up on one another;)Thats all for now i guess.
*ta-ta*

2010-10-25T17:50:00.005+08:00

**my lovely ladies:)
Today was the first day of school:)
And i'm back to my good-kental old self..
With the jeans,3/4 shirt,spects,sling bag,slippers...
It was nice meeting all my lovely ladies once again:)
I've gotten my CDS subject which is Basic Financial Accounting and Public Speaking.
Which i know Public Speaking wasnt one of my CDS choices.
Gotta appeal latest by this Wed 5pm for the one which i wanted:)
I promise to work hard this semester!!!
And to move on to the next one without any regrets:)
INSYA'ALLAH.AMIN!
*ta-ta*

2010-10-20T16:39:00.008+08:00

For the past two days,i've been doing O.T... Staring work at 9 in the morning till 10 in the evening.. It was an awesome thing to do!For it's always what i've been wanting to do!!See-ing people work till late night in the office and all. The time also pass by quickly without u realising if u really are doing ur work.. It's not only about me getting the O.T pay but also the experience and the 'feeling' that i got..

Todae,ended work at 10.. Abg Wawan fetched us.. Sent Joy home first after which we fill the fuel car before having supper at Prata Coin..had kway teow kuah..Otw back,stopped at Loyang Point to try activate my new 'Multitude Card'..But sad to say it passed the time(11.30pm)..Thus i'll have to try again tomorrow.Aniwae,thank you ya Abg Wan for helping me:)U so handsome...hehehe..Here i am updating my blog..Will be starting on my portfolio and HOPEFULLY i'll finish it of before i go to bed!For i wanna enjoy the weekends!

THE LAST WEEK END!
That night,i sorted out my thinking. I didnt even sleep a wink. Sorting out things slowly and wisely. By dawn,i've made up my decision. I've decided. It was a risk that im taking. And i was mentally prepared for the 'pain'. I believe that somehow or eventually it will hurt. Well,i believe those who went through or rather took this risk will be hurt too somehow someday. And i believe even though it's gonna hurt,it's gonna heal too... I LOOK FORWARD TO 'IT'. FOR I CAN SAY I'VE MOVED ON AND I'VE STAND UP ONCE AGAIN BY THE GRIP OF YOUR HANDS. AND I HOPE YOU'LL GRIP IT TIGHT FOR AS LONG AS YOU CAN. *ta-ta*

2010-10-17T20:10:00.005+08:00

*one of the pictures taken when sending mummy off to Jogyakarta.

It's been long since I last blogged..

Been busy lately with work,portfolio and blah-blah-blah..

Many is running through my mind now.

First and foremost.My foodport folio.I STILL HAVE TONS TO DO!!

Pffftttt....the due date is on tuesday but i'm due-ing it tomorrow.

Which also means i have no choice but to take half day again tomorrow..:(:(

The research is also such a killer!!

Had i known it would be this "messy"i would have started it right away after the exams...

School?re-opening soon...and i look forward to it!!Insya'allah i'll work hard and ace this semester for i dont wanna regret again..AMIN! Work?Very busy!!Headache!!The need to rush so many report as school is starting soon!

Last but not least...i'll be uploading many photos of what happen when i went on hiatus..Mum went to Jogyakarta,Company dinner all.And i mean all.. 2morrow is your Birthday.Which i had hope i could celebrate it with you back then..But it seem that..nah..it's okay.. Apart from that,my feelings right now is like "rojak" *ta-ta*

2010-10-06T23:21:00.007+08:00

**the birthday girl:)HAPPY "18TH"

Honestly,i'm "wiped out".. I'm so tired..Haven't been having a good rest for quite sometime.. Today at work,my mind wasn't there.. And i just don't know what am i thinking about.. Well,today is Ria's birthday.. We gave her blueberry cheesetart with a candle in the morning for breakfast.. Daniel(one of the agent)treated the office to pizza huts during lunch.. But I didnt had any as i got no appitite.. In the afternoon,after knocking off we then cut the actual cake.. Chocolate truffle..yum-yum!! After which,we mrt-ed to town to have ayam penyet. Since Kak win was craving for it and the birthdaygirl wanted to have it too..so y not?Me and kak Win can never sit together on one table. why?cos we'll laugh our ass off rather then doing what we were suppose to do..like eating.Every little thing is like a joke to us... After ayam penyet-ing,we accompanied Ria to look for her make up and then went our seperate ways..One hell of a great but tiring day for me:):) 2morrow is off day since i wanted to do school project..the cooking portfolio:) Gonna start my day early tomorrow and hopefully i can finish all the 6 dishes so that i need not take any more off days;)
My mind is in a whirl..At times i think i can make this work but at times i think i don't.I miss him and i know u miss her too..I'm trying to move on and i'm taking one small step at a time for i have the habit when i fall,i fall deep..just like how i fall previously until u came and picked me up.
*ta-ta*

2010-10-05T23:24:00.012+08:00

*this is what happens when one gets bored while working..

It was a long day at work.. Was thankful to god that there was no problem with the system. For when i work,i wanna be more of help then to hindrance. Cabbed to work with sis Nad and had Macdonalds for breakfast.. Time past super slow after lunch... At 6..I knock off from work and mrt-ed to Orchard to have ice-cream buffet with my lovely friends:) It's so nice to be able to see them once again.. Well,i only had 3 scoops of the ice-cream. Hahahaha..pathetic!might as well i eat the normal ice-cream.. Well,maybe because i had too much of the cakes and fondue... Would sure love to go there again:) After which,had a walk with the guys before we went our seperate ways. Me and Maj went to shop for a while before we 5-ed home:) Ouh ya,and the pictures below.Yes i know i do look freaking fat!!ppfffftttt.... last but not least:I PROVED U WRONG DIDNT I DZUL?by posting up the pictures on blog...pppfffftttt... *ta-ta*

2010-10-04T12:42:00.000+08:00

MONDAY Unknowingly,it was Joy's birthday. Her "21st" Well,I just want to wish her all the best in whatever that she does. She's the one whose always been there for me back then when I started work after my O's. Guiding me patiently and laughing non-stop at both my lame and funny jokes. And I just want to say thank you for EVERYTHING.I really appreciate it.

TUESDAY Work was draggy.. However at the end of the day,our hard work was paid off. A trip to FURMA HOTEL!!2nd company dinner. The first one was at Carousel. Ouh and the food there was good. Ya,anything thats free is good isn't it?hehehe.. I'm having a thought of bringing my CST's friends there. Well,maybe after thoes who are taking the Supp papers. On my way to Furma Hotel,somehow bump into Shamira,Hazwani,Nureen and Leezah.Was unexpected though as it's at Bishan and who would have thought that they would travel all the way to Bishan to jalan raya. Its nice meeting them once again and knowing that they are doing fine..

Wednesday Took half day from work. Went Town with sis Nad and abg Wawan. Shopped and had lunch at Swenses. As usual,had my salad. After which,went to fetch Kak Liza at her work place. Nice work place can say,at Fusionpolis(however u spell it)

Thursday After work,went to Bedok to get Mum's favourite mee soto. Intended to suprise her. But sad to say,the mee soto was sold out. Thus I bought for mum mee rebus instead. Such a good daughter!(untung siape kahwin dia.ahahahaha!!) Bought some toiletries along and 9-ed back home Reached home and guess wat? Mum wasn't at home either. hahahaha..

Friday Went to work Afterwhich went home straight i guess? Literally forgot what i did on that day...ppffftt..

Saturday As usual,woke up early in the morning Went to Geylang to get the supplies and went to mummy's shop. 12 places and there were shortage of drivers. Reached home around 8pm. Jie-jie Yvonne was at home with her boyfriend,eating pizza.. Speaking about that,I didnt eat a thing the whole day helping mummy besides 2 piece of chicken. Got ready and soon enough went to catch a midnight movie at Kallang Leisure Park with him.

Sunday Reached home around 2am after the midnight movie. Took a short nap and mum woke me up ard 4.30am.. Got up,get ready and followed mum to the market before heading to the shop. Wasn't busy.4 places.But what makes it busy is,Mum was the driver and there were no other driver.Thus it gets busy! Mum drove and i was the one who carried the stuff up and set things up. Tired?yes!but i can possibly let mum do the job right? After all 4 places were cleared,i thought i could get a good rest. But instead we went to collect the utensils from the order the day before. Reached home and i went flat in sit Nad's room. Sis Nad woke me up,got ready and headed for City Square for Kenny Rogers:) Yum-Yum!!! After which,had Aunti Annie's:) Trip to and for was jam.As expected. Reached home around 10.. Cleaned my room partially before departing for my Dreamland:)

I can honestly say that we are both afraid of history repeating itself.Thus we are both holding back for fear of going through that phase again.All i can say is,our PAST are the ones thats holding us back from our Present and our FUTURE.But like what sis Nad say,"Its a matter of whether YOU wanna be held back by your past..Otherwise you can CHOOSE to let it go and move on with life"..

*ta-ta*

2010-09-24T23:02:00.009+08:00

I had the intention of blogging as soon as my internet is up.. But up to this point,there's still no connection,thus here i am at my rooftop blogging using any wireless net that's available. Being at the rooftop also means any wrong move made,its either me or the laptop that will be in the "obituries" section tomorrow..hahahaha..

Owkay,lets start right from the begining..Exams??atrocious..I don't even know what i was thinking..I can honestly say that I didnt put in my all.All that was in my mind during that period was just to get over and done with it.And today,as the results were released,i felt like crying.Crying for both joy and sadness.Joy as I passed all my subjects and sadness as I knew I could do better and I expected much more out of myself..All in all,I'm dissapointed with myself.

Hari Raya?I can honestly say as the years goes by,the excitement for Hari Raya just die-ed off..and this year I only celebrated on the first day of Raya..The second day I was rotting at home,fasting(puasa nam') and wrecking my brains for the exams..my collection?ALOT!alot more then last year..Because,last year I celebrated Raya with my family and many assume that i'm the elder sister to my ELDER sis as I look much more mature.So when they ask my sister whether she's schooling,my sis said no and thus they assume I should be working to as i'm "older".But this year,many were asking where was I and when they knew that I'm studying at home,they ask my siblings to pass me the green packet.hahahahaha....Maybe I should do that for the upcoming years?hehehehe...

Holidays?Not of much excitement..Started working the day straight after my last paper:)Planning to go to Genting maybe?A drive with sis Nad and abg Wawan?Soooo have been wanting to take that ride!I don't know what you call that but it's the 20 storey high(i think) thingy and they'll just "drop" u all the way down..Hopefully if I go there one day,I'll get the 'KICK' as when I went to Escape Theme Park and Jakarta's theme park its like as though there's nothing.hahaahaha...

*smiling with teeth just will never suit me..
Okay,let's get down and talk about myself.At this point of time,many is running through my mind. Work,family,friends,financial,personal,short say EVERYTHING! Many asked or rather say that i'm rich.But I can honestly tell u it's not me it's my Mum.I only 'tompang'.If u ask me,I can honestly and proudly say that I've been supporting myself very-very well.& I can swear that I've never asked Mum for extra money to pay for my bills,books,toileteries,clothes,accesories,transportations....short say all!The money that she gave me every week to school I somehow make full use of it.Planing carefully between WANT and NEED..But as u know,sometimes temptation just kills and I can honestly say I've spent over HUNDREDS on clothes..I can also say that I'm going back to 'square 1' and luckily my pay day is next week!Thus,im still okay:)
Recently,I've been going out with this guy. He's such a nice guy.& I believe that he would be one of many girls choices out there:)When I'm with him,I can honestly say I felt the warmth,the comfortness,the security everything.Too be honest yes I might want to give myself a chance and start out with him.But a few things are holding me back.One,as I get to know more about his surroundings of friends somehow or rather I feel that I should have stayed out of the picture.For I believe everything was perfect and would be perfect if I hadn't "appear".Secondly,one if his friend,a girl likes him and they often or rather always hang around together as a group.Some of u might be asking me SO?Well,the problem is,I'm a girl and I feel for her...I don't wanna ''cut queue'' for I myself went through that phase before.I know the feeling so badly.The feeling that many wouldnt just understand or rather feel.The guy that I've been waiting for-for close to two years,I've known him longer than the girl that he is with together now.We were almost together.Almost.Almost.But in the end,he went with her.I tried telling myself that there was no fate between us and I still wonder why do I still bother to wait...Thirdly,I believe that he wouldn't want to be tied down to relationship from what I see...Fourthly,I don't put in too much hope for I've been through this phase and I know that me putting too much hope would mean MUCH disapointment.Everytime,being around him makes me feel........I don't know how to put it in words but the feeling is just there...and there are also other reasons thats holding me back.And all I'm doing now is to pray hard all day long that history doesn't repeat itself for if it does,I don't know what to say....

Today?I took off.Went for my photoshoot(one of the picture is above).Cab there and Mrt-ed back...As soon as I reach home,I went to collect the strawberry cheesecake as Tampines with babe Ain.Reached home,abg Wawan reach home and soon enough,my friends came over for Raya...didnt manage to take a shower,change or even wipe off my make up or what..hahaha..

Hahahah..this is sure to be my longest post EVER! *ta-ta*

2010-08-31T23:20:00.005+08:00

Okay,and what if I say I've cut my hair?

i would like to congratulate myself for being able to sit still and study for 3 hours straight! Wats more its Human Anatomy and Physiology(HAP)! The topic which i hate-ed the most since day one! And how I wish I could have done this easily since the day I started on the YOG break..But its all too late i guess? Hari Raya is just next week and so is my Semestral exams... I've yet to clean the house,my room,buy baju kurung and also bake kuih for Hari Raya.. Well,all these aren't my priority for now. It's the Sem. Exams! I'm trying to make full use of the number of hours left for me to be able to study... I'm soooo looking forward to ending the exams! I just wanna get over and done with it.. Owkie dokie..i've made up my mind to study to study from 12-4am,have my sahur and take a rest before I continue to study tomorrow morning.. But I'm not sure if I can last that long..hehehehe... *ta-ta*

2010-08-24T20:57:00.005+08:00

Todae..I wasted the whole day just like that I hope that tonite it'll be able to sit down quietly and do my work until sahur.. Exams are just days away and I still don't know what am I doing.Lofting around,lazy-ing around and not doing any quality work!I'm so mad at myself for that.But the weird thing is.. When I don't study,I feel guilty thus I open my book..But the moment I open my book......ppffffftttt.....you should get me..Puasa+holiday mood+raya mood all this is distractingone away from focusing on their studies..Tonight 'ton-ing' at airport with Qian Hui and Jia Liang..Kinda lazy...But if I dont go I will never study!!!pppfffffttttt....And not forgetting..airport means Macdonalds for sahur...

*wwwweeeeeee*

2010-08-24T03:12:00.010+08:00

*Missing those sweet memories

Like finally I've change my blogskin after much 'postpone-ing'. For everytime I wanna do it,I'll hesitate.Pfffftttt.. I actually wanted a black background.. But I've decided maybe its time fer a change.. Owkay..let me start from scratch cos i've got lots to tell. School holiday has started..YAHOO! But the semestral exams are coming..BOO... And I dont find myself working very hard. Because since it is the fasting month,my laziness is taking over me.. *tsk-tsk-tsk* Hari Raya Puasa is coming and I'm so not looking forward to it.. For Hari Raya=Semestral Exam I've also yet to get my baju kurung and I'm intending to re-use the one that i had few years back... I'm missing my dearest Lydia badly... Hopefully I can find time to spent with her asap! Which I also think after Hari Raya is the earliest. Today,while studying I receive a call from sis Nad.. Asking me on whether I can work and without doubts I said yes! Telling her that I can only start on the 14th(the day after my exams) Well,at least I can earn some rather then loft around at home. I'm so-so excited to meet my ex-collegue(when i start work again) which i have left them since school has started..*wwweeeee* Now to real business.. Currently,I wanna change for the better.. I wanna treasure the ones whom are close to me be it family,frend,aunts,cousin,nephew and blah...blah...blah.. Cos when I look around me,I hardly see any 'pillars' for me to lean on... Ouh well,what more can i say...

Last but not least,I just wanna be sorry to those of you who are reading this if I've ever hurt ur feelings..For I realised that I love to joke bluntly and being in-sensitive towards people feelings when I do so..

2010-07-22T19:54:00.002+08:00

okay..its been long since i've last blogged.

School was stress(as usual!)

many high expectations since we're gonna be the future teachers:)

I wasnt able to cope with school when it ferst opened.

But now thankfully as time goes by everything seemed okay:)

my ferst quizes,test,tutorial test scores were atrocious but its improving.

allhamdullilah! The semestral exams are coming and there are also many-many upcoming testes and quiz..

pppfffffttttt.....

how i wish i can bring myself to update more specifically but im just simply lazy!till then!

*ta-ta*

2010-04-15T21:02:00.004+08:00

Todae was suppose to meet liyana at Tampines interchange around 10.20am.

But guess what??

she reached there 9.30am...

and thats when i just finish my morning shower..

jaws dropped when i receive that msg from her..

i then rushed over to Tampines

reach there about 25 mins later??

Lucky i've ironed my clothes all if not,its gonna take me hours..

LOL...

But its okay,i dun blame her.

cos she live in woodlands and rarely come to the east side..

we then had breakfast at KFC..

oh my,the porridge was awesome.fantastic.fabulous.splendid..

u just name it!

hahahah.....

we then walked to the busstop before 8-ed to school.

I can sae it was a complete waste of time??

cos actually we were suppose to meet our care person

but due to time constrain,

we'll meet her next mondae instead.

after which,we went to play some animation thingy

which im so not into and cant be bother.

after wasting the precious hours,

me and some of the gerls bus-ed to whitesand.

had dinner at ananas cafe after which we parted.

but me and nisa went to take a walk at whitesands.

went to get my necklace(which broke straight after breakfast when i was holding it)

then we went to the library before nisa bid goodbye to me.

i then bus-ed to Loyang point to get some food for mummy.

reached home around 8.40pm.

talked with mum fer a while before i had my shower.

now i'm here blogging..

after this,i need to continue my work-work from home remember??

hehehehe...

take care people!

*ta-ta*

2010-04-14T16:27:00.002+08:00

school orientation has started.

got the chance to meet and know the future-to-be-teachers.

heee...

Well,my class is a mixture of indians,malay and chinese..

there are only 20 people in my class....

some are old,some are young,some are also from JC...

and....THERE'RE NO GUYS IN MY COURSE...

:(:(

things would never be the same again..

can sae i miss secondary school...

the second dae of orientation was awesome...

heee....

especially the mass dance..

not onli that,

i was also told that since we're gonna be future teachers,

we can't wear mini-skirts,slippers so-on to school...

and...my jaws drop!

as i've bought many slippers already....

hehehe..its okay..

it didnt bother me that much..

Besides all that,i still haven't gotten use to going to school by bus.

cos i usually walk to school since young.

so I gotta need some time to adapt myself to it i guess??

and,this is onli like week 0 and the bus-stop is alwaes packed??

wats more if the whole temasek polytrechnic opens??

i bet i will reach home 2-3 hours after school ended!

hahahas...

that's too fake already.......

okaylah...

since school has started,work didnt stop for me..

i still have to work from home...

and get paid...

awesome rite??

heeee....

owkie dokie,will upload the pixie of the orientation

when i've grab hold of it ya:)

*ta-ta*

2010-04-11T20:37:00.002+08:00

ORIENTATION is tomorrow!!

and i'm so not ready fer it!!

cos fer all i know i HATE orientation..

wats more the orientation is like 4 days with one nite stay..

*urrrgghhh*

can i bring like my TV,FRIDGE,STOVE all??

hahahahs,okay thats too exaggerating already...

I check online regarding the orientation thingy

but its different to what the TP people called and tell me...

for all i know i even had the intention to work half day tomorrow...

*arrrggghhh*

TOMORROW...

no water-breaker please!!(however u spell it)

no water games please!!

no running around please!!

cos i'm not ready fer many things!

and my mind is extremely in a whirl..

4 pills of panadol just dun work fer me..

and i alwaes have the feeling of puking whenever i see food..

I need to go to the bank fer my TP application

as MOE will be tranfering money to my a ccount every month..

I need to withdraw myself from Singapore Polytechnic...

I needa submit my application thingy omg..

okay i've got lotsa pictures to upload..

from the jakarta trip,company dinner,outing with my darla lydia...

owkie dokie..

*ta-ta*

2010-03-25T20:49:00.003+08:00

dissapointed,sad,mad..

just name it..

all that frustration feeling is inside me..

from the ferst start and fer the fact that i wanna be a teacher,

none supported me right from the start..

all were doubting me..

& no one knows what it feels like to be in that position..

from the time whereby i told everyone that i wanna be a teacher..

"you" all doubted me...

trying your very best to 'shrink' my motivation towards becoming a teacher..

all i need is just ur support and nothing else matters..

but why does it seems so hard for you to give me that encouragement and boost my motivation?

& for the fact that someone whom is NOT of my next-of-kin is very-very willing to help me..

just hurts me..

but,thanks to "you" all..

i'm not 'sinking' but instead im growing stronger then yesterday...

i just got to say if..IF something were to happen to "you" all one day,

just dun come knocking on my door...

cos thats the time when...........

i'll just walk away...

i didn't expect you to turn me down during the time when i needed you the most..

the time whereby i thought i could count on you..

but now,you've shown it all...

& i'll treat it like as though we weren't related to each other...

it might sound cruel of me to say this..

but this is how i feel..

& here i am pouring it out...

there's so much more for me to express and say..

but it's so hard to put it into simple sentences...

2010-03-23T20:17:00.005+08:00

i was in the bus when i saw someone whom looks exactly like u riding on the opposite road.

the same bike,the same jacket.

i was then transported back to those times.

those sweet little memories...

i miss thoes times whereby u alwaes came over to my house during ur break...

i miss thoes times whereby u help my mum out at her shop and kept on teasing me...

i miss thoes times whereby u almost everynite came over to my place to watch a "movie" with my siblings despite u being tired...

i miss thoes times whereby i make for u milo without fail...

i miss thoes times whereby i cooked & u ate them,saying it was delicious....

i miss thoes times whereby u message me...

i miss thoes times whereby u and my siblings joke around....

i miss thoes times whereby u followed me and my family overseas..

BUT i didn't miss the time whereby we started to drift...

i kept questioning myself,did i loose my love to someone better?and does she loves u like i do?

COS U KNOW I REALLY-REALLY DO!!

2010-03-22T21:21:00.005+08:00

owkie dokie,

here i am again after so long missing in action! hee... I've receive my letter from NIE.. and yes i will be starting my journey towards becoming a teacher soon!! insya'allah,everything will go smoothly.. my schedule is tight due to work... but i promise as soon as my school starts,i will blog as often as i can.. cos i believe that i'll have lots to talk about.. especially with the new life in poly..

hee...

PAYDAY is also coming soon!!

gonna have a last min shopping fer school with.....

heeee...

i'm so happy..

LA.LA.-LA.LA

its so nice to be happie..

hahahaha!!!

ni dah melebih!!

i'm still in the midst of shock

fer the fact that i've receive an invitation for commendation dae from gvss

for being one of the prize winners????

hahaha!!

eeerrrr.....

somehow or rather i believe they either mislook alex or majidah's name,

as in register number,cos my name is in BETWEEN them...

hahahas...

will be going fer the invitation on 10 April as well as to collect the O' level cert along:)

alritey,i guess here shud be enuf ya..;)

*ta-ta*

2010-03-01T21:05:00.004+08:00

work is killing me:(( but its great to know that todae marks the last month of me werking!!! YAY!!! its been long since i last blog and as usual i dunno where to start. Jakarta trip was okay:) manage to get sum stuff that i listed down. but didnt manage to get all of them.:) got posted into singapore poly. ferst choice summore.weee...:) and is super-duperly confused with the enrolment thingy. btw the nie letter.. if i dun get it by this week,it shows that its not my 'rezeki' (somthing like ...not my luck??not my fate??) but sumhow or rather.. i pray that the letter would come later this week insya'allah...amin!! oklah i veri the tired. **ta-ta**

2010-02-03T20:32:00.001+08:00

haha..

left my blog dead for a while..

busy with work and i mean EXTREMELY!

though im a part-timer...

piles and tonnes of work is waiting for me at the office..

and i seriously hate working as i have to sit and face the computer almost 24/7,

NOT only straining my EYES,but also my ASS!!

and now i feel FAT and WIDER...

instead of growing up-ways,im growing side-ways!!

*sob2*

Alritey,as you guys know i went for the interview at MOE last week..

yeah,it went smoothly..

BUT one question KILLED me!!

dun ask me,what question was that..

hahahas...

erm..i dunno wat to blog about..

lotsa things are running through my mind and i dunno where to start..

Ouh,i ever said before that im getting a satio by the end of last month...

but i choose not to..cos rite now,im currently "making-over" my room..

new colour,and furnitures:)

and hell yeah,all the money comes from my own hard earn money...

(so now,dun ask me why my money is alwaes gone just like that!)

hehehe....

alright..since i have the time,i will blog about what i will be doing next week..

cos i believe that i will blog only after i come back from overseas!

MONDAE:

will work my ass off and will collect the tickets at airport after work..

TUESDAE:

on this dae,i will work half-dae..

as there will be company D'N'D later in the evening..

and yes,till now i'm still not sure of wat to wear as the team is..

"super-heros"...(LAME)hahahas!!

WEDNESDAY:

work will start from 12-7pm..

guess after which i have to go home straight to pack my bag since im leaving the next dae..

PLUS,its a morning flight!

THURSDAY:

have to wake up as the flight departs around 6.05AM or 6.55AM...

gonna have my breakfast a macdonald ferst as i didnt request for a meal in the plane..

so i guess i have to leave home around 4++??

and i WILL be there till the NEXT tuesday:)

*ta-ta*

2010-01-21T20:49:00.005+08:00

ALLHAMDULILLAH!!

My prayers was answered by the one above.

I was SHORTLISTED for the interview to becoming a teacher.

The interview is this coming tuesday(26/01/2010) at 10am.

Hopefully everything goes well..

All i have to do is just prepare myself,

so that i wun be nervous on that very day..

If not,what will they say...

"how to become a teacher if you are so nervous infront of us??wats more in front of a classroom filled with almost 40 people??"

hehehehe!!

INSYA'ALLAH everything will go fine..

I opened the letter when i reached home after work.

& Mum was in the toilet taking her wu'duk..

I ran up to her room and showed her..

she then started to sujud and thank the almighty..

with tears rolling down her cheeks,i just couldn't help but to...

u know...

hehehe..

im over the moon currently..

Ouh,work??

Its been a hectic day for me todae...

sort out all the Agents ID..

End-ed it around 5?an hour before knocking off..

then Mei(the accounts person)

told me to help her sort out all the individual agents income...

i didnt even manage to do it half way...cos there's over thousands of transaction!! looks like i have to keep still in front of my computer the whole dae for the next couple of daes huh??

JIAYOU!

i alwaes have the 'semangat' to create my own blog..

but when i open the folder to create.........

heee....hehehehe...

semangat se-minute kata kan..

owkie dokie folks,i've got lots to do..

If possible Tuesday morning before 10am,message me okay?

to redcue my "cold feet-ness"(nervousness) before the interview..

its gonna help and i mean it WILL help alot!!

thank you people,you very nice..

*ta-ta*

2010-01-18T20:30:00.003+08:00

Todae was a normal day at work..

did my own stuff and was requested to do the follow-up on the 'debtor listing'

But since i cant us APPAC(company system),

i guess i'll just have to do it tomorrow or the day after.

I had bubble tea and bread for lunch.

Todae lunch ended around 2.15pm..

Went back to office to continue with my job..

Then around 2.35pm,something which i have been waiting for happened.

I receive a call from MOE.

Regarding my application for teaching.

The Mam' said that she sent me an e-mail on friday but there was no reply from me.

She wanted to clarify some doubts which is which year did i took my o' levels and she wanted a copy of my O's results.

Whatelse...i quickly use the company printer..

Scanned and sent it to my mail before forwarding it to the Mam'

Insya'allah.

If i have the rezeki,i'll be a teacher.

AMIN!!

Hee..

The normal one and a half hour bus ride to-and-for work has changed to a 20min ride to me..

Whenever im not bury-ing myself into something,my tots run wild..

When im at work,i'll bury myself into it and try not to thing about "it"

But when im not,i'll tend to think about "it"

Im sick.

Sick and tired of it..

List all the different words that describes sadness in the dictionary..

Thats how im feeling right now.

Sad,exhausted,dissapointed...

Just name it.

*ta-ta*

Im gonna smile and tell the whole world that i'm fine

2010-01-17T00:08:00.001+08:00

i woke up early in the morning and went to Pasir Ris primary school to fix the table like wat i did previously last year..

Afterwhich,quickly rushed home and got ready to take my edusave scholarship award for the 4th time in my secondary school life..allhamdullilah!:)

got home around 1.30pm..

abang and frends were already shooting and jamming like MAD in the room ..

Then around 6 isham came over...

wat else,fool around with that toyol for a while..

Didn't manage to make it to Boon's pit:(:(

Frends??I'm shoving then aside..

Dun ask me why..

Cos you're asking the god damn obvious question..

Pay day?in two weeks time:D

Jakarta?in a few weeks time:):)

im suppose to be in bed now..

but i just cant shut my eyes...

*ta-ta*

2010-01-12T21:37:00.004+08:00

Yesterday,i went to bed late.. looked through the courses carefully... select the few and number them accordingly.. then,todae morning on the wae to work in the bus, i looked through them again and RE-NUMBER them again.. Then again during lunch time, i looked through them for the last time and re-number them before applying. and yes,i'm done with the applying.. the ferst 3 choices were SP.....

I just hope that i can get into my ferst choice..

Todae,when i went to work,

omg!!lotsa work..

In addition,it was urgent!!

i had to rush them quickly..

not onli becos its urgent but becos i wanna use my lunch time to apply for my school..

2morrow will be another busy day for me again..

*wide smile*:):)

*ta-ta*

i just can't wait to go to JAKARTA with .......them:D:D

2010-01-11T18:28:00.005+08:00

results are out. am happy but i ani't satisfied with it. :(:(:(

maths i got like b3??

its as good as failing to me..

y???

okay,its no use crying over a spilled milk..

now i wanna ask,does anibody knows how to use or rather see the booklet??

cos i see too many codes and my mind is in a turmoil rite now..

its written in english,but to me its like indian handwritting as i dun understand anithing.

hahahas..

Now,im scared..

scared to enter the next phase of life..

which is my poly life and i dunno y..

its wat i have been waiting for all this while to enter poly..

but now...im scared..

i hereby wish all my frend good luck for ur future dreams and goals!

may success alwaes be with you guys.

*ta-ta*

2010-01-08T20:38:00.007+08:00

My mind is currently piled with many tots..

i'm depressed,sad,confused,happy,excited..

i just feel like letting it off.... wish i could jump down from a 20 floor storey and be alive again!!

so i can jump over and over again!!

gosh..

*on the brink of nervous breakdown*

:(:(:(:(:(

2dae i was extremely busy at work...

in addition,the using of laptop just slows down my pace..

Ouh,the whole office was treated to pizza during lunch ealier!

yum-yum!

wat else,since its free i ate to my fullest!

hee...

Many work is still waiting for me at the office..

but still i have no choice but to take off on MONDAY...

to collect my results!!

intended to take half-day...

but it will be rushing,so i rather not...

Yesterday,before i went to sleep,

i was worried.

worried about my results,especially english!

cos without it,i can go nowhere..

was too worried sampai terbawak-bawak mimpi!!

(translation:until i brought it into my dream)

i dreamt that i got 7 for english.

SEVEN!!

and the rest of the subjects i got 6..

i was wearing an ite uniform

& i went to ite simei

taking the first step into the school with the feeling of 'reluctant-ness'

at that point,i was shook of my dreams..

almost cried in my bed & the many tots of "what if??"

what if my dreams are true??

what if i really fail??

what if i really get that kind of results?

what if i really-really go to ite??

all this WHAT IF's,was filled in my mind...

But i prayed hard there would be a miracle...

*ta-ta*

it seems that i'm no longer in ya' all list??

2010-01-06T22:41:00.005+08:00

So its now 2010 ya??

& results will be out next mondae (11/01/2009)

kinda excited!!

wooowee...

crazy uh??people all if can dun want to get their results..

Todae after work,went swimming at Toa Payoh..

swim for about one hour or so before me and sis nad bus-ed home:D

watched my chinese drama before i started to blog...

can sae i was pissed during lunch,till now??:D:D

due to some reasons..

alritey,i've been trying my best to CUT DOWN on my TALKING crap..

but apparently day by day my lips, they are getting more and more "hardworking"

anyone has ani tactics or tips??

to shut that "thing" up??

dun tell me to put super glue in between my lips ....

i'll swear i'll.........kiss u..

hahahhas!!

like ewwww.... Many tots are running through my mind,

be it work,holiday,family,school,financial,friends and so much more..

I can honestly sae,my mind is alwaes 'packed' and worried..

dun intepret it wrongly..

it dosen't mean when i sae i have these tots

in my mind,i have many problems.

NO.

okay...

im tired.

good nite people.

sweet dreams:D

*ta-ta*

*i tot of having a "reunion" dinner with u guys..

But apparently looking at the things they are now..

i feel like.....

2009-12-28T13:06:00.002+08:00

everything that i do or touch,

gets ruin!!

from the christmas party at office and also while helping mum:(

so sad,so sad...its a sad-sad situation..

I literally messed up the office party during the celebration..

gosh!

ok,i guess i shud just get over it..

i got my pay and guess wat??

i've a big hole in my pocket again!!

wat a spent thrift..

haha...

nolah,i gave mum,siblings & maid a lil bit of wat i have

and also paid some of my bills...

wahyuni good gerl:):)

heheheh...

Yesterday went to kak noli's house..

was invited to her anak's cukur rambut..

food??DAMN SUPERB!!!!

i ate the achar non-stop!

of onli i could finish the whole tray,i WOULD!!

GREEDY PIG!!hehe:P

Ouh,btw its comfirmed im going jakarta next year...

am just left with the booking of tickets...

YEAH!!!):):)

im at werk,but im blogging??

bad.bad.bad.

hehehe...

i've got nuthing to do as all the files are in the meeting room,

and they are having a meeting:(:(

ouh,i'm also getting my Sony Ericsson "SATIO"

next year!!its a must!!

hehehe,lunch time is soon...

*ta-ta*

2009-12-25T15:15:00.003+08:00

work and personal schedule has taken my time off blogging..

well...basically i have many things to tell about but i dunno where to start..

so therefore i've decided to just blog about my current status..

okay,let talk about my daily plan:

MON-FRI(9-6PM)work,and by the time i reah home i'll be dead beat

In addition to it, the bus ride is 1 and a half hour ...

imagine,everyday going and coming back from work???

my butt gets NUMB!!seriously & honestly:))

WEEKENDS,i became a full time daughter..

help mummy out at her work place...

okay....now about my personal life..

i somehow feel that people are walking out of me one by one..

"Lonely,i am so lonely,i have nobody,i'm on my own...ouhhh"

ahahas...okay im carrying that too far.....

frends??one by one they left me...

or rather shud i sae im walking away??

i have no idea...

family??all have their own plans...so...

some how or rather i feel like...

okay i shall not say it...

hmmm....

i've made plans to go overseas with cuzzies

most probably next year,during chinese new year..:):):)

Ouh,todae is CHRISTMAS...

i planned to go to indonesia to make my namecard but basically...

Nah...

hehehe...

im tooo tired to blog now...:(:(

2009-12-09T18:39:00.001+08:00

-a day wun pass without me thinking of you

as i still feel your presence even though you weren't.

I miss those times when you were around.

Your smile,your eyes,your humour,your warmth is all I see and feel every single day.

I kept questioning myself did i loose my love to someone better and does she loves you like i do?Cos you know i really-really do.

& I want you to know that I'm still waiting for you

at the crossroad to make a U-turn despite the weather.

2009-12-08T20:49:00.008+08:00

its been long since i last posted. All due to my hectic schedule.

Prom is over and i'm not only lazy to blog but to also upload pictures about it and be specific. Work is great,getting closer will all the staffs and agents.

2dae,the agent even treated us Macdonalds for lunch and another agent bought fer us Old Chang Kee..

Did house keeping and talked & laugh about quite a lot with Rachel.

Okay,cut short on 5TH DECEMBER 2009 was my 17th B'dae. But instead of celebrating the joyous occasion,i choose to help mum. On 4th december,the night before went to fix the pelamin at tampines. At 12 midnight i received many messages. i was sad,cos the close ones were not the one to wish me ferst. In fact it was sumone whom i just took as an 'ordinary' frend. i was touched and dissapointed. reached home and went to bed on the morning of my birthday around 2am

after i came back from Tampines. The next dae,Saturday.woke up early as usual to help mummy out . Went to sent stuffs to the wedding places and sum other places. I had no idea that there was a huge surprise awaiting fer me.. DEARY SIS NAD,called up closed ones to give me a pleasent surprise:D touched & i did tear-ed.(silently,behind everyone.DUH!) Honestly,this is the year or rather the FIRST b'dae which i receive so many presents. Roses,Jigsaw,Perfume,Earrings,etc.etc... Apart from all that, the person whom i regared or rather assume

to be the one whom i can rely on and the closest to me,

could forget about my birthdae..

NOT as in exactly forget but the person wished me in the late afternoon,

AFTER MANI-MANI-MANI PEOPLE HAVE DONE SO..SAD,DISSAPOINTED...

that goes to show how much i meant to the person.. Its okay if u dun celebrate it with me,

but all i wanted from u was a simple 'Happie birthday' wish..

nuthing much,what was so difficult in doing so?? Whats was more,the person could even gave sumone else whom dun regard the person as a close one a PLEASANT surprise. Ouh,WHAT A SURPRISE TO ME.. When i flash back to see all the memories we shared,it no longer meant anything to me.. I thank all those who were present on my Birthdae surprise...

It does go to show much i meant to u guys.

You guys made my dae despite me being so tired..

Ouh,and the roses..i 'cair' upon receiving them:D And also Majidah,for making it all the way from her home early-early in the morning today to sent me the present before i went to work around 6+,going to 7. I'm seriously touched,Maj thank you,you very nice.. I love you guys:D

**lovely sis nad bought these.thanx babe.i LUP u..hehehe

**adakah patut??orang tengah busuk-busuk keje aleh-aleh datang "SURPRISE"

hahahahs...aniwae..im touch.love u guys:D

2009-11-21T19:06:00.017+08:00

Thursdae: stayed at home and clean my room. hahaha,my room was upside down before and after the O's... Afterwhich in the evening,mum went to isetan with pakcik.. whereas adik and i went to john little.. met sis nad at airport to buy her stamp at the post office before we mrt-ed there:D soon after,met mum and pakcik there and we shopped quite alot.. i bought 2 pairs of heels and bag from charles and keith. sis nad then bought a heels to but i forgot what brand.. hahahas.. bought them as i'll be starting werk the next dae:) Fridae: woke up around 5+ in the morning to clear up the 'foyer' outside for the class bbq in the evening as the bbq starts first before i came home as it was my ferst dae of work:D work was okay.. i had to key in the payment voucher data and take over as a receiptionist for a dae as the person was on MC... swear its a nice experience:D but handling the payment voucher,hulermak! u see to many numbers that your head can .............you know wat i mean... stop werk at 6 and bus-ed home... reached home around 7.20pm.. house was already packed with people:))) and wats good was,i had bbq food laid on the table already.. hahhas.. that gathering,i swear i was damn talkative!damn noisy!damn lame! hahahhas... excitedlah!can't wait for we all to go our seperate ways! *OOOPPPPSS* i meant the other wae round.. hehehe.. we talked,cam-whore,ate,jokes and so on and so forth..it was great! but unfortunately,mani needed to leave early,so just left me ALONE with the guys.. hahahs..aiseyman! guys were nice,they helped clean up before they went off despite me pestering them.. after they left,i started cleaning the 'foyer' i washed the floor and so on.. went to bed about 1+ or so.. Saturday(todae): woke up ard 4+.. 3 hours after i savely departed from my lala land.. mum was buy at the shop todae.. i did with the job mostly with my eyes half close.. chey.chey. hahahs.. its still pending on whether we're going to prom using mum's van or car... *sheese* Since the start of work,my schedule has been tight.. weekdays,monday to friday from 9-6 weekends,help mummy out.. so FRENDS, if u have anithing to inform me about or if you miss me(which i know u guys do!hahahas), just message owkay and i'll get back to u either during breaks or after work:D *ta-ta*

2009-11-18T20:28:00.006+08:00

Monday:

help mummy out,

after which,

went to Tampines Mall despite my 'selekeh' looking.

and i literally mean DIRECTLY after.

without changing clothes or putting on ani perfumes or so on..

EWWWWW,,,

yes i know that & thanks for reminding.

hahas..

Mum spent a bomb!

she bought AMERICAYA shoes 2 pairs summore

and one cost about $140+++

then she bought a BONIA bag which cos almost $400.

but its nice though:))

then she bought lingeries $40++ for EACH..

omg..hahahahs...

then she told me,take what ever u want.

of course,being a good daughter,i said 'no'

cos seeing how happy she was shopping was enuf for me:D

good ah wahyuni??

heheheheeheh

once i tested her on a heels which cost over $200,

saying that i want it,she said..

"OK,get ur size.wat else u want,go take,i pay"

hahahahahs...*shocked*

i was just testing her and lil did i realise,she took it seriously..

N...im not sure wat else she bought,too mani to be elaborated.

Tuesday..

help mum out as usual..

then i realised something..

PROM is getting nearer!!

its not that i haven't bought anything or wat..

i 've gotten everything completed!

just that,my heart beats slowly thinking of that dae..

i wonder why..

hahahs

Wednesday(todae)..

woke up ard 6+,

then went to geylang supermarket to get mum's supplies as usual

before we head to shop..

when i reached there,i was on task...

chey,chey...

hahahahs!!!

then accompanied the driver to sent the food & utensils to 'Shamrock Villas'

afterwhich,headed back to shop...

whipped up some dish fer mum and nenek

before i prepare stuffs for the afternoon order and for tomorrow's order

reached home around 6??

the i received a call...

SAEING THAT I CAN START WORK TIS FRIDAE!!!!

yyyyeeeaaaahhh!!!

hahhahas...

previously i was elated and dissapointed..

now im glad and worried at the same time!

cos this fridae is also class bbq and its held at my house!

in addition,work finishes at 6...

i swear i gotta cab-ed back home...

heheheheheh...

yeah!!!

pardon me for my 'powderful' english

*ta-ta*

2009-11-16T10:25:00.001+08:00

Yesterdae,there was no 'discount' in waking up to help mum,

woke up around 4.45 in the wee hours of the morning to help mum.

tired?

yeap:)

Kept dozing of in the van on the wae there:D

hehehe..

was busy till about 11am??

before we head home to get ready to go to our new condomenium

:D:D:D:D:D

'Lagenda Tasik'

dun bother looking it up in Singapore's map,

cos i'm sure u can't find it in there..

Cos,its in Johore Bahru:D:D:D

Awesome is all i could sae

But,its not fully ready yet as theres no water and light supply yet.

In addition,the swimming pool was superb!!

and yes,its not yet filled with water but RAINWATER!!

hahahahs..

with the accumulation of rainwater,

there will also be an accumulation of mosquitos ain't it??

Sis nad was like a part-time 'Dikir Barat'

she claps here and there to catch the mosquito..

hahhahas..

we then went to a restaurant,

i dunno wat it's called,to have dinner.

i had 'kungfu kwey teow'.

i had it not because i'm hungry

but because i was curious

'KUNGFU'??

hahahahs..

It was like a normal mee that we can get in singapore here though:D

ouh ya!!the otah-otah there was also superb!!

its thick and chewy for onli 50cents(RM)

so valued for money!!

hehehe..

there was no jam on the wae back to the checkpoint.

was a breeze i coud sae:D

got home,

changed and everything before i watched 'news'

then not long after,i doze off to my dreamland..

heh..wat do u expect?

i woke up at 4.45 in the morning:))

Todae,mum has onli one place to handle and its in the afternoon..

therefore im still at home:D

hehe..

alrighty,till here i guess.

*ta-ta*

2009-11-14T22:22:00.003+08:00

**DEAREST MUM!!

Todae woke up ard 5.45am

then went to mum's shop to help her out..

i was tired and i mean EXTREMELY tired

but i knew i had no choice,

as i can't bear to see mum do werk while i "shake leg"

tsk..imagine me doing that??

what kind of daughther am i??

hahahahs..

lucky wahyuni.good gerl.

"untung siape kahwin dier".

hahahahahs!!!

sis nad favourite's quote

:):):):):)

All i know is,i did work non-stop at mum's work place..

Despite my eyes being half-close!

hahahs..

macam zombie da..

Then went to vivo with mum to look for sum stuffs..

met kak noli and abg joe there together with their newborn baby..

cute!!

hehehe...

After which,went to "The Verge" with mummy

to look for flower as...

heee...hehehe...

i forgot to take it back during the collection of utensils under the block

so,of course people took it..

hahahs...

i felt bad though..

just for the NEWLY vase and flowers mum paid almost $200

and within a week i lost it???

Omg.i can imagine the heartpain ,one kind..

cos 'kocek' burnt !!

hahahas..

reached home around 4+,

got ready again quickly

accompanied mum to visit her frend

whom is going to perform their Haj sumtime around the 20th i guess..

reached home around 7??

Not long after,kak ayu came:D

Isham,u veri the cutelah!!

hahahas...

play around with the little one for a while before they went home:

and here i am:D

*ta-ta*

.i'm all smile.

2009-11-13T11:39:00.004+08:00

I woke up around 9 in the morning

and got ready for the job interview

when i was about to leave home,

i took my phone on the bed which was charging

saw a miss call,from "HUTTONS"

called back and YEEHHHAA..

i got the job!!

Elated and dissapointed at the same time.

Elated as i got the job

Dissapointed as i'll start only in about 2-3 weeks time:(((

But overall,i'm glad.:D

So,in the mean time i think i'll join back NNCS??

hahahahs

as well as to 'upgrade' myself on using the computer at a faster rate..

So when i start work it'll be easier for me i guess..

i swear,this year i barely touch the computer until after O's

which i guess i have rusted on...

OMG!i'm on air thinking about the job..

hehehe...owkie dokie till here i guess:))

*ta-ta*

2009-11-13T01:14:00.000+08:00

Todae started out sucky??

was suppose to meet the girls at 1030

for the interview

but i lost the address to the venue instead

so i met them at 1115 instead.

which was like late already cos the first interview ends at 12

so we went to Thiong Bahru Plaza instead.

had our lunch at 'Eighteenchef'.

omg,the food was superb & value for money.

i had like pasta with cheese and its NOT the normal cheese.

its the pizza's cheese,damn thick and nice

along with ice lemon tea and ice cream for only $6.39 NETT..

SUMPAH i want to go again!

hahahahs

well y not??

cos they also have a branch at simei..

hehheh..

Cuzzie zila also met us there..

Afterwhich went for interview at Amara hotel..

cuzzie went seperate waes,she went for karokae with her frends..

intended to take up the position of 'room attendent'

but they say i have to undergo 3 months of training

which is like the period of time that i can only work..

then the manager indirectly die-die want us to apply

and gave us a different position.

he gave us the 'waitress' position..

*sigh*

i swear im gonna reject without doubts if they call me..

Then went back to town for the metro interview

which in the end we decided not to take it,

as we have to commit everyday until 31 MARCH!!

we then walked around before we head back to bedok to get sum stuff.

afterwhich,hanani followed me home to get some thingy.

watched polo boys together before she head home...

I then open the computer and started creating and editing my own blog..

hahahas..

tomorrow

i'll be going for another interview at Clarke Quay..

trying to get hold of that position

'Junior Admin Assistant'..

its 5 days work week 8-5pm..

:):):):):):):)

i swear i'll be on cloud nine if i get this job.

in addition,i feel secure as i have to commit for a period of 3 month,

meaning i'll have a "secure job"..

hehehe..

trying to manage my time wisely here.

weekdays work,

weekends help mummy..

ain't easy especially if i have to fix the pelamin...:D

alritey,i have to give up the computer now,

my dear adik wants to use the comp

to "talk" to his buah hati..

hahahas

*ta-ta*

2009-11-11T18:44:00.004+08:00

finally, i'm here to update my blog again:D O's is over! and so is the "problem" with blog. Looking for a part ime job ain't easy. I've sent out about over 20 resume and none replied*sob2* Then 2morrow i'll be going for job interview at Metro and AMARA Hotel.. with darla nani, zila and maj:D Hopefully my misery of finding a job will end there. Tsk..and sis work place is also like pending and im like.... "how long more??" *sheese* Actually,i wanted to update my blog. As in give it a whole fresh ""new look"" with new skins and song, but im like.... heee...hehehehe... I'm sure u know what i mean:D ALritey,i've been "studying" the computer long enuf, its time i take a break:D *ta-ta*

2009-08-18T15:01:00.000+08:00

blog will be on hold until after my O's maybe??hehe.. blog is also freaking me out:S

2009-06-09T13:07:00.007+08:00

it was a long weekend fer me..

on saturday,

woke up around 5.30 and went to geylang market

to get the supplies as usual..

i dunno y,but that day was seriously busy..

in addition to the heat from the kitchen,i was like..

oh my god..

reached home aroud 6pm..

quickly got ready and went to town with majidah..

went there to get her stuff..

came back around 11.

and off i went to ang mo kio to collect the utensils

as the auntie requested for the utensils to be collected immediately.

went there with sis nad and khairul..

reached home ard 12.15...

changed again and went to swensens to have my supper..

was having gastric..

and i was like lifeless??

haha..

came home and slept aroud 3am..

(no wonder i get fat so easily,after i eat,i sleep..heh:p)

. sunday:

not long after,woke up around 7 and went to mummys shop.

it was not busy only a wedding place,

was already at home around 3..

then went to loyang point..

to get sum dinner stuffs,

i cooked fer the family

spagetti,pasta,pizza,cheese fries & sushi

and single handedly(!!)

invited kak ayu over too

as ustad was not cuming that nite too:DD

isham was darn cute..

and he'll be sleeping over this fridae:DD

yeehhhaaa...!!

mondae:

went to school..

after which went to majidahs house,

helped her out on something...

reached home and went out ard 2.30pm..

meet cuzzie zila and bebs at vivo city..

ouh my,the forever 21

and most of the dresses are really tempting me man(!!)

it was lucky that i managed to control my tempation

if not,i would have possibly squandered my money away..

I bought a dress at 'river island'

ouh my(!!)

i swear i didn't regret buying it..

after which,

parted wit them and bused to safra mt faber..

to meet my other bebs..

but sadly,

all the bowling lanes are fully booked till mid-night..

hahas(!!)

cabbed back to vivo,

sat at satrbucks,went to toys'r'us

and played cards at the roof top..

reached home pass midnight..

todae:

had my geo lessons and science practical..

i had to restart my whole physic practical..

hahas!!for not minusing the correct amount

therfore i had to repeat the whole experiment...

then straight went home...

*ta-ta*

labels:u took my heart away...:p

2009-06-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

owkies,todae was long for me.

apparently,started with having maths

before continuing with the s.s workshop.

after which,went home and got ready.

meet lydia at the busstop and bus-ed to kallang.

went there to hand in the form of the beach netball,

cos like i said,i had problems sending it over to samsung..

there,meet charmine,aloysius and i forgot one of the gerls name.

after we made the payment,

bussed back,

but to simei,

went there to get my Oheya

the GREEN colour one which i have been craving for(!!)

then we headed for the netball court to have night training.

had frendly matches with the tudung gerls and all.

had fun!!(seriously)

fifi,fiona,germs,andrini,apen,liyana and lydia was all there.

it was like the moment that i have been waiting for.

which is to train with them again(!)

5-ed home..

took a shower before posting this blog..

oh my...

my eyes are heavy(!!)

gotta sleep early

as tomorrow will be helping mummy out

afterwhich in the afternoon,

will be heading to town..

yEEhhhAA(!!!!)

alrighty..

till then..

*ta-ta*

2009-06-04T17:16:00.004+08:00

yesterdae was a long dae..

had maths in the morning

followed by social studies workshop.

it was such a drag..

but at least its better then mt intensive.

mt intensive was such a killer!

went home ard 1.30pm.

trimmed my hair a little.

after which,went to study..

reached home ard 7.30 if im not wrong.

not long,went to MUIS at bradell.

accompanied mum to collect the utensils..

todae,

history reapeats itself,

except,i didnt went out to study

neither did i trimmed my hair.

haha!

stayed home and clean my room.

and i really mean CLEAN!!

it took me about almost 5 hours just to clean the room and the toilet.

i kept on sneezing

as it was dusty.

not onli that,

i had running nose(!!)

the water kept on flowing down

eeewww(!!)

disgusting.

hehe..

ouh shuts!!

maths assignment..

heh...

owkay,actualli took part in beach netball with a group of my frends

but sadly,

the hotmail is having a problem delivering the mail over to samsung.

arrrggghhh!!!

was actualli looking forward to it.

aniwae,im dead beat..

*ta-ta*

2009-06-02T20:39:00.004+08:00

hehe...

realised that i have been neglecting my blog

eversince i had my written diary:D

owkies,yesterdae had my MT O'S

paper overall was average.

then todae had my oral prelims.

arrrgghhh...hehe...

i have lotsa things in my mind that i dunno where to start:D

*ta-ta*

2009-05-29T20:30:00.004+08:00

owkay.its been 2 daes since i last skipped intensive. mt O's is this coming monday. and im not sure on whether i can make it or not. hopefully i would. this june there ain't holidaes fer the graduating classes. except fer the 3rd week.:D report books, hehehehe, teruk! L1R4:19 i need to buck up, if maj can get 10,TEN. y NOT me?? jia you! last lap! honestly, i felt cheated & extremely dissapointed! once is enuf,i ain't gonna let history repeat itself again. i thank sis nad fer alwaes being there fer me. i love u beb.

*ta-ta*

2009-05-22T18:43:00.002+08:00

**owkays,thats selengah...

my results are all out..

managed to passed all

but my standard dropped!

its okay if like i dropped by one point

but....

maths from 2 dropped to 5!!

science from 2 to 4!!

oh man.

i feel soo-soo stupid

oh god!

but on the other hand,

im thankful fer the fact that i passed all.

am just left with one subject which is combines.

But aniwae,i predict i will fail as s.s brought me down.

none of the 5 essays that i studied came out.

so my essay out of 25 i got like a single digit.

hah!

am leaving it all to fate about my geo results..

owkay,todae school ended at 12.30pm.

scroll my way up to the hall

with majidah to prepare for the olympiad thingy.

4 schools were present.

riverside,coral,prcs n of course greenview.

coral and prcs emerge as the winners.

[it was a tie]

went home immediately went the occasion ended.

tired to elaborate more on it.

alritey..

*ta-ta*

2009-05-20T23:36:00.001+08:00

**Couples of the dae!!yeehha!haha!!

2009-05-20T22:33:00.004+08:00

*see how mani times maj blew off the candle! haha!

p.s:stop the music player on the top left hand corner.

2009-05-20T13:30:00.011+08:00

yesterdae was the last dae of the exams!! so intended to go out and chill

as we celebrate majidah's and iqmal's bdae.

went to minds cafe at safra tampines.

had lotsa fun with 'taboo'...

had a time of our own

Before we served the cake.

After which we headed to the orchid bowl upstairs.

had two games.

wasn't so into the game.

not much excitement as it usually was when i was newly to the game.

So kept quiet and mind my own business.

hahahs.

Asked maj,what if i were to be very quiet??

Her ans was direct "DON'T ,later no more laughter"

hahahaha!!!

Reached home ard 11+.

Owkie,todae had poa olympiad...

Was blur at ferst as i had to multi-task!

Matthew was my saviour.

He helped me,so i had lesser burden on me:D

Thanks Matthew:D

haha! after which,headed home

stopped by macdonalds at loyang point

to buy adik's lunch.

*ta-ta*

2009-05-13T12:59:00.003+08:00

my blog will be on hold until after the exams.. this time round the exams are really2 tough. the gap is obvious fer ani normal acad student if they are taking the mid-year. okay.enuf of it. my la-la land is calling me *ta-ta*

2009-05-05T19:05:00.003+08:00

it was so called a 'long' weekend for me.

okay..

continuing frm my previous post.

on fridae,went to accompany sis to have breakfast at simei.

long john breakfast:D

hahahs..then sis intended to buy her shampoo.

but the shop was still closed.

after which,we took bus home.

switched to car and went to tampines mall

as what i said,went there to accompany sis gt her new phone.

abg wawan tagged along[menyibuk je!!hahahahs.no hard feelings owkay..]

dissapointed.that sis was not able to sign a new line currently.

so i left her and abg wawan alone

rushed back to downtown as hanani was waiting.

studied frm 12 all the wae till 7 in the evening.

siddique and rafik came ard 5.

after which,dzul,iqmal n gerald came down.

had 2 games of bowling.

ouh ya.sis nad tagged along too:D

as usual,shes the champion.

lols...

actualli,i was just giving her chance.

if i didn't,she wun even have the hope of beating me.

then saturdae,

helped mum at her shop as usual.

not sure what was on mum's mind.

she ended up cooking extra fer 200 people.

she didnt check the dates properly.

people tend to be forgetful

went they are stress

i seriously agree with it.

the food ended up being sent to the mosque.

instead of giving it to "mr tong"[tong sampah]

might as well mum donate it:D:D

on sundae,

surprisingly

mum had onli one place to cook,

so i took it as a bonous.

tried unwine-ing myself.

but i just cant bring myself to do it:(:(

later in the evening,

had religious class..

on mondae,school was as usual.

had temperature taking and all.

todae,

after school,

had maths remidial.

anglican high paper was ****

HARD[was were u thinking??lols]

after which,

darla lydia accompanied me home to sort out the

mixed notes.

thanks to the printing aunty.:0

okay.im tired

*ta-ta*

2009-05-01T00:58:00.004+08:00

on wednesdae,had two practical straight.

physics followed by chemistry.

was confused during the chemistry practical.

hahahs.

after which,went to loyang point with lydia

to help her photocopy some notes.

unfortunately,on the way to loyang point,

we bumped into a sicko.

a man.he wore his pants losely until it sees his butt line.

in addition,he wore G-STRING.

imagine,a man wearing g-string??

wat gross even more was his g-string was like the transparent black flowery material.

after photocopying notes.

went to the food court.

lydia ate ferst with li tong they all while i waited fer hanani.

ate the kwey teow goreng frm the mama stall.

then todae,had eng & mt paper 1

was hard man.

at one point of time i feel like

shoving the question paper away frm my table

and walk out of the examination hall

but i knew,

if i do that,it'll affect my overall results.

went home and took a gud long rest.

then people kept on messaging me to go out with them tomorrow.

hahaha.unexpected.

dzul,iqmal,gerald all was asking if i wanna follow them watch movie.

siddique asked on whether i cud go study with him.

then sister asked on whether i could follow her recontract her phone.

*faints*

hahahs!

me actualli had plans daes before,

intending to go study with hanani 2morrow.

but i tried organising the time again.

morning,company sis recontract her phone,

after which will be meeting hanani,

then in the afternoon,

will be going fer the audition of "singapore idol"

hahahahahas!!OOOpppss!

i mean siddique and rafik will be joining us fer study.

then maybe later in the evening,

i'll either join the guys fer the movie or skate or bowl.

alritey.

*ta-ta*

2009-04-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

had a gud dae todae....school wasn't boring

cos we had physical lesson.

played captain's ball.

eng did some topic sentence.

malay did compo.

cme did chemistry.

assembly had a drama from act three.

after school went home and got ready to meet lydia

went to downtown at 4 and studied till 9+

before me,lydia n justin had a game of bowling.

hanani came later because she had maths test.

did malay assignment

before i touched up on chemistry.

was happy for the fact that i can still cope.

i just need to brush up....

but...how to??

when i dun have the least interest in that subject??

y?y?y?

everytime when i open my textbook it would be like a core to me

my mindset will be like....

ouh come on,all words and i dun understand,

i will never learn..

its true what mr ong said,

if u dun have the interest in the subject,u wun learn.

!!!

omg!!!

i seriously need to pull up my socks..

jiayou!

i can do it!

its my last year.. but somehow i feel like as though im unprepared

as the dae after tomorrow,

exam starts..

time seriously flies!

and i swear im not ready for it!

*ta-ta*

hahahs.....people have been hinting on me about my previous post.

dun worry its meant for a frend of mine.a girl.

nothing much.

haha!!

wat were u guys tinking??

lols.

2009-04-27T14:24:00.002+08:00

im still disturbed about the incident though. i feel very bitter about the way you treated me. thought of retaliating back at u with a tight slap. but i just cant bring myself to do it. it took 3 years for u to show ur true colours. i knew for the fact that u hid some of them its just a matter of time before u show it. and im truly happy for the fact that i know what i ought to do now. dun blame me if u see the changes in me, neither shud u blame urself. i'm sick and tired, i did all i can to keep it going. but u on the other hand, is selfish and darn sensitive. exams are here and i dun wish to ponder on small things which are not important to me. losing u is as gud as me losing nuthing. and i mean every word that is sae. give me a break.

2009-04-23T23:06:00.003+08:00

just came back frm studying with hanani.

studied at mac cafe. it was packed when i came ard 5 plus. but no longer was after 6 plus. did notes for poa summaries them into a simpler way. so it wud be easier fer me to recap. *sight* gotta endure!! my last year already. ealier, had eng mock after school. the paper was hard i swear! after which was suppose to study as a group. but... dzul was sick & iqmal cudn't make it the last minute. so left just me and hanani. studied fer 3 hours straight before 'unwine-ing' haha! more of 'on the brink of nervous breakdown' instead of unwine-ing. spoke about stuffs which were heart-aching.. yea!!!2morrow fridae.. going to have a study spree again. wanna practice on my accounts before starting either on chemistry or geography. i swear in a way or two i feel like giving up 'science' but physics told me not to.. *faints* olritey!!! *ta-ta*

2009-04-22T21:00:00.002+08:00

take time to realised.. oohhh..oohh... omg!!and i just realised that most of the maths mock question came frm one of assesment book. which i stopped practicing half way! had i known i just continued practising. now currently i know i have lost 6 marks!! *sob2* okay,todae after school had science revision. was so tired to think about how to solve the questions. wats more,it's like a so called wake up call fer me. especially in one of the particular topic "CHEMISTRY!!" hahahs...oh my.. tomorrow will be having eng mock again.. i cannot tahan... *faints* alritey,wanna do my chem revision.. *ta-ta*

2009-04-21T18:01:00.002+08:00

it was shocking fer the fact that i passed the maths paper n i seriously thank god fer that. okay,todae early in the morning it started raining cats and dogs. my shoes,skirt & left shirt was all wet. we then had physical lesson fer the ferst period. had no p.e but changed then waited for those who took the re-test for the 5 stations. took the opportunity to go to the toilet and dry my shoes. then jaw did not came fer malay, he was absent. then again i took the chance to recap a lil bit on my werk. after recess,had 3 straight periods of chemistry. was sleepy but the least i could do was to pretend i was not going to fall asleep. haha! after school had maths mock test paper 1. omg!! honestly,the paper was hard. and i did my best. so im just left to see where do i stand rite now. have been pondering, why do i have the habit of dwell on things which have already passed. should try to kick the habit somehow.. yeeehhhaaa...tomorrow after school, going study with hanani.. okie dokie *ta-ta*

2009-04-19T19:23:00.002+08:00

fish man! tomorrow comfirm get maths test back! and i'm very sure tht i would be the LOWEST! due to the stupid mistake fer not looking up to the board. *sigh* im okay with me failing but i'm not okay with mr phua's word/reaction. he's sharp man[in sense of his criticism,how ever u spell it].. oh my god! this situation is driving me crazy.. *ta-ta*

2009-04-17T23:39:00.003+08:00

**at the stadium**tis is wat happens wen one is deprived of childhood.haha! **at popeye's **waiting fer bus to go to e.c.p **while skating.. **the pro.haha.. **gerald...haha! **hanani.. >will upload more when i have the tyme..sleepy!hahas. *ta-ta*

2009-04-17T19:28:00.002+08:00

hahahs, todae started out sucky. woke up around 6.40am when im suppose to reach the stadium at 7.20am had no choice but to ask ayim to sent me. tip ayim $10 fer that.lols rather then i give the taxi driver. managed to get to the stadium on time. *phew* then,around 10 plus if im not wrong, we had uno as a big group. played 2 games before we stopped fer the prize presentation. it all ended around 12.30pm if im not wrong. then headed to tampines mrt station. took 81 followed by 34. reached airport together with hanani,dzul,iqmal & gerald. had popeye's fer lunch it was akward because it was quiet as we eat. dunno.maybe the guys shy. hahas! then we continued our journey to east coast park. bus-ed there and walk all the way to the skate rental. it was quite a distance though. rented the skates fer 2 hours. honestly,it was my ferst time skating. was scared at ferst but i told myself "nurul,isn't this what u'hv been WANTING to do??" hahahs. we all started out holding hands to the path way. hahas.. iqmal was the one who had trouble skating. so the so called "vendor" give him some tips. listened and tried to applied it. and dzul thought me a lil bit too.. so in a way or two, i skipped the beginner level. haha! we skated, all the wae to the bus-stop where we alighted. took us about 1 hour to reach there. before we rested on the bench. after which,me and hanani skated to buy drink because we were thirsty! and i mean very! ouh ya,did i mention i spent $10 bucks on a drink?? lols! the shop was so far so, gerald and iqmal tried going back to the rental shop [in case if he wun be able to make it on time]. dzul waited fer us before we skated back together. met gerald and iqmal half way through. seriously had fun. if u ask me did i fall, yup i did, 4 times or 5 times if im not wrong. but the worst was when i got off the slope, i fell and ROLLED on the pathway. hahahas. seriously it made my day!! being able to 'fulfill' my wants of skating as well as having fun with my friends at the same time. looking forward to another outing, but guess this time will be after mid year. we then bus-ed back to airport. went to ntuc to help mum buy sugar for tomorrow event before i 53-ed back home with gerald:D okie dokie. now i have to get ready to go to cik norati's house. they'll be going to umrah most probably wudn't be able to make it due to tomorrow's event. wishing them a save journey go & cum back! ["selamat pergi,selamat balik"] hahAhAha!broken english. okie dokie. *ta-ta* **upload pixies wen i cum back!

2009-04-16T15:54:00.005+08:00

**there u go adorable aren't i??

hahahs,way back to my primary one look. lols.. it was a one GOOD lesson learn for me. had maths test just now was so "eager" to have the test that i forgot to see up to the whiteboard. it was such an important thing to do. how on earth did i forgot to see the board ?????!!!! i'll comfirm flunk the test. for a simple reason. i did not change the error on the question paper[which was told on the board!] *sigh* wat a dum-dum was i?? ok!no use crying over a spilled milk. had half and hour break after school before we started on the english mock test. during the break,had two games of uno. with mattin,mal,maj,gerald and zharfan. the mock test was kinda hard, but all i knew is i'hv given my best so i need not worry that much. YEA!!2morrow is sports dae!! after which will be going skating with hanani!! yeehhhaaa!!! *ta-ta*

2009-04-15T22:29:00.002+08:00

owkay hanani just went home. thought her some basic stuffs on vectors. fer the test tomorrow. cant teach her the more advance question cos i myself is not that sure. haha! during silent reading, so called "surrendered" my ezlink card then lessons were all as usual. had physics test the last two period. received back my new ezlink card during the test. the new ezlink card consist of my primary one photo. haha! will upload it soon ya. *sigh* tomorrow will be having maths test during lesson time and english mock after school. after which will be going fer netball training. my eyes are darn heavy but i wanna watch the 11 o'clock show. metaphor[however u spell it.haha!] if im not wrong. im not into the mood of blogging now. will update when i update again yah. *ta-ta*

2009-04-13T15:59:00.002+08:00

**khairul macam PAH....HAM!!hahahas.

olritey!todae was fast,just that it was slow after recess. had english test.was ...unexplainable.& i'm neutral bout the results. nazrene didn't explain clearly.so i did wat i tink i ought to do. which is to aruge!hahahs gosh!this week everydae test. tomorrow rep. wednesdae physics. thursdae is maths and english. hopefully i wun get so worked up. olritey!i wanna do my homework. *ta-ta*

2009-04-11T23:28:00.001+08:00

todae was supposedly to meet hanani at tm around 8 in the morning.

wanted to have our breakfast at mac before we start our "study spree" at tampines library.

but just as i guessed so,hanani over slept.

hahahas...

studied quietly in my room fer like 2 hours plus

before she msg me to sae that she was seriously sorry.

she tried to aussage her sense of guilt by wanting to blanja me a cup of drink.

hahahahs!!

we met around 1+ at simei mrt.

after which,we headed down to bukit merah library..

revised sum of maths and physics for the upcoming test.

half-way though was kinda headache,

so decided to take a break by learning some chinese quotes..

hahahs,we left the library around 6pm.

we then headed off to unwind at Safra Mount Faber by playing two games of bowling.

then went to Seah Im food court,

the one opposite vivo to have dinner before we call it a day...

we then bus-ed 30 to bedok

before we took 9.

on the way home,

sis nad then called to ask me to company her to fetch mum at singapore stadium.

and so i did agree,

she waited fer me at the bus-stop behind my house....

and here i am blogging.

my eyes are sleepy.

*ta-ta*

2009-04-10T21:55:00.009+08:00

*selengah![act cute oni!!EHHH...wait,i AM cute!hahahs]

**sweets

**promoting darlie???haha!

**EXTRA-ordinary.haha!

**cute + extra-ordinary=??

**lols...

it was a along dae yesterdae.... had a "sudden malay test". mr jaw said,those who have yet to finish the test see him in the mt class room at 1.45pm. and thats what exactly i did with majidah.but,it turned out that he fooled us. not onli did he not turn up,me and majidah had to wait so long fer him. after which,we decided to just return back to class for the oylmpiad meeting. ended ard 3 before i went to the study area and got ready fer netball training. had physical training..gosh.haha!sprinting was what we did. ended and reached home ard 5.50pm.. then i got ready to meet the rest at e-hub to play bowling. met up with lydia,hafidah,hanani,iqmal,dzul,rizq at 8.. it was sour,cos we had to wait fer like 3 hours plus before we got to play.. intended to bowl then go to changi to have supper but it would be late by then. so we had kfc. majidah then came down after her tuition fer bowling. but sadly,hanani had to leave minutes before the game starts:( had two games and it all ended around 1am. well,dzul offered me a ride home as his brother was fetching him, but i declined his offer as i dun feel nice. what else,i had to walk all the wae from downtown to home. and it took me half-an-hour so.. came home,watched tv before the tv watched me. hahahs! olritey,currently having plans tomorrow, going to have breakfast with darla hanani before we head down to tampines library and get down to werk! exams is like 20 daes away man!! and next week is like almost EVERY SINGLE DAE is TEST! gosh!hopefully i'll be able to cope *sigh* okie dokie,thats all i guess *ta-ta*

2009-04-08T21:46:00.002+08:00

yesterdae had my 2.4km run. I swear i dropped my stamina alot. Aniwae,i was touched by wat majidah said And gave to me yesterdae. . Cnt disclose at all ya.secret*hush* After school stayed bck for netball study Onli to find out tat it was nt compulsory.

haha! Bt i continued on to do maths

while waiting for hanani to finish her detention at 5. .

then while i was doing my maths,iqmal suddenly msged to check upon me if i was alrite.

bcos during 2.4km in da morning,i fell n hurt my left knee. .

haha!

all i cud sae is, im touched.lols. . .

nuthing mre uh!

Haha!. .

then 2dae was as usual,nuthing much to sae,

just tat,i decided nt to go for da high jump heats.

i was foolish tat i choose not to go

cos onli 5 ppl went!

had a higher probability of winning!

arrgh. .

alritey,no point dwelling over a spilled milk.:D. . *ta-ta*

2009-04-06T15:50:00.000+08:00

our fruit of labour!

heh..

sis nad,hanani and me,otw to fix the pelamin [looking ugly all,especially after "tanning"]

hanani & mummy

very well,it was a long and hectic weekend fer me... on friday after school, hanani followed me back home to put her stuffs. we then met up with lydia to go swimming at downtown east instead of heading to the gym it was a surprise that when we reached the pool,theres onli one person there. wat a pathetic soul. haha! i decided to 'tan' myself up. i swam rolling up my long swimming costume. swam fer like 3 hours plus before rushing back home to get ready the pelamin stuffs. mum reached home minutes after me and hanani did. cooked fer hanani maggi and left her alone cos mum was like.. hurry2,get ready the pelamin stuffs,the driver is on his way. hanani then said she wud stay a "little" late to see if she could help but it was not "little" it was "alot". i was short handed into fixing the pelamin,so hanani helped till about 12.30am whereby i sent her home after that. was kinda worried,cos she's a heavy sleeper and she have to get up early the next morning fer commendation day. congrats hanani fer being the top fer D'N'T. after sending her,sent abg wawan home ferst before going back to the wedding place to run sum errands. reached home and went to sleep around 2+.. saturday, barely 3 hours after i got home, mum woke me up to follow hwer go to shop. i could barely open my eyes but i had no choice. i MUST help mummy. helped mummy till about 7pm. stayed late cos on sundae,mum had to prepare for two wedding places. one tampines and woodlands. me and sis nad sent mum home to rest fer the next dae before we head down to tampines to continue with my wedding deco.. fixed the wedding table and stuffs before realising that i forgot to fixed the spotlights fer the pelamin! wat more,it was misplaced and by that tyme, it was 12am. imagine!like after so long then i realised. panic!but not to the extend where i wud jump down from the second storey of the block luh. hahaha!okay,lame! went home to shower and got ready. sunday, after i showered continue my journey with sis nad, to the bangla's territory. MUSTAFA CENTRE! went there to get the replacement fer the spotlights. all in my head was in less the 10 hours the occasion is going to officially start and i must get the spotlight fixed! but it was a dissapointment when i came to know that they dun sell ani of them. so went rounding in singapore with sis nad went 90% of the people in singpore are sleeping soundly. didn't managed to find ani 24hrs lighting shop, so decided to go back to the wedding place to ransack every single thing! and indeed,it was playing hide-and-seek with me! it was cover down in a bown under all the skirtings. ass! if not i cud have and 2 hours extra of sleep. fixed the spotlight and went home. reached and went to bed at 4 in the morning. mum woke me barely an hour later! gosh. at that point of time i just feel like jumping out of my 4 storey window cos i know if i did, i wud not onli have MORE then enuf sleep but also a peaceful then me,sis nad and nenek went to fetch abg wawan. cut short. help mum till around 1pm where i sent food to the wedding at tampines. requested the driver to drop me a block away cos i was looking ugly and lydia,hanani and hafidah was all there. then ayim fetched me. reached home. got ready for the wedding invitation at woodlands. stayed fer like an hour before going to pasir panjang to take money to pay the wedding helpers and my kendarats at tampines. reached there,paid the kendarats before opening the pelamin myself. imagine?with my baju kebaya climbing here and there. haha! then rushed home as ustad was alreadi waiting to start the prayers follwed ny religious class. i swear i just feel like sleeping in the toilet while taking my 'wuduk'. i was tired and sleepy. my eyes were heavy. it all ended around 9.30 before i quickly packed my bag! i felt rotten when i remembered there's homewerk!!! i swear like not going to school the next dae. but i had no choice. completed my homewerk and straight away fall asleep. mondae[todae] my alarm went off. i dread waking up,cos i still felt sleepy. went to school not sae i had no mood, i was tired. and i meant VERY! alex gave me a so called pushed two times and it was lucky fer her that i was VERY-VERY TIRED. if not i wun have retaliate back with a BIG PUNCH fer that two push .hahaha!like real! then recess time,julia said y i was in a bad mood? i just smiled. again in classed again she asked me,so i told her a summary of it "lack of sleep".. then siddique asked me if i was 'sakit' i smiled and said "yup!sakit cinta" hahahs! when school ended,went straight home. okay,i wanna sleep now. i had a long-long-long weekend and i need to catch up on my sleep.... somehow feeling guilty that i didn't study over the weekends. *count the rest of urself lucky to be leading a happy and easy life:) pardon me fer ani mistakes or watsoever. to tired to check.nite2!

2009-04-01T19:43:00.002+08:00

it was unexpected that i passed chem test.:D

was ready for the worst actualli. will be having s.s test tomorrow and accounts the dae after tomorrow. will be fixing the pelamin again this fridae nite...and hell yeah! *sigh*mani thoughts are running through my mind and i dun know where to start. olritey,guess i'll guess stop here fer the time being. needa touch up on my s.s now, so i can try to have ani early nite tonite. last but not least,thanks lydia fer the April Fool's thingy. lucky i didn't fall fer it. haha! *ta-ta*

2009-03-30T14:47:00.006+08:00

*was taken yesterdae before i went fer the invitations.* omg! had flu the moment i came home.. *sigh* aniwae,todae i receive a gud news. REP test was postponed to 14th april. wat else??all i have to sae is,i rejoice upon hearing the news. hahahs. hanani will be coming over later in the afternoon. wants to study fer her s.s test tomorrow. will be doing maths homewerk followed by accounts revision. yeehhhaaa.. okie dokie. i wanna wait fer hanani.. *ta-ta* nothing u do will make me fall in love with u. u just get on my nerves all the time. u robbed me off my comfort zone. everything that i do,u wanna observe/know. u keep asking people about my whereabouts and everything!! leave me alone can??!! i swear i just feel like giving u A FOOKING THIGHT SLAP!! !!!!!!!

2009-03-29T21:36:00.005+08:00

***isham!!i miss him so much!cute ain't he??haha!

i seriously had enuf.

im sick and tired and i swear i seriously abhor this kind of life! but on the other hand,im thankful of whom i am. okay,thinking about it just gets on my nerves.haha! the weekend is over n tomorrow will be back to school. this week is schedule with 3 test. not sure if there's ani more test cuming up. and hopefully not. omg!just remembered,will be receiving back chem test 2morrow!! flunk!flunk!I WILL FLUNK! todae,helaped mummy in the morning as usual before going of to two invitations. 'cukur rambut' & 'maulut'.. came back ard 6 before i had religion class at home. oh god!rep is the dae after tomorrow and i have yet to check the meanings... lols. okie dokie,doing it now. *ta-ta*

2009-03-25T16:59:00.000+08:00

i guess,burning midnight oil was a farce yesterdae nite. i slept around 4.40 in the morning and woke up barely an hour later to go to school. it wasn't easy fer me to study chemistry,cos as u know. i hate chemistry. not sae i hate,its just the fact that i prefer physics over chemistry. how i was i could resurrect my sec 3 life and i'll promise that i would learn chemistry with my heart and soul. but there's no point in saeing all that now. cos this are the ramifications if u dun cherish situations. "u reap wat u sow".. i was in a foul mood when i parted with hanani on my way home. i reflected on how i did my test. & i did my chemistry test hastily. wats more with my eyes n my head spinning[due to lack of sleep i guess]. now i'm filled with trepidation and its all over me. majidah sat to me during the test. upon seeing her completed the paper so early, i was like...*wat the fish!* the paper must be goddamn easy fer her luh! i was like still pondering n mulling over a few questions when she completed the paper. majidah??one SMART-ARRSSEE. n am happy fer the fact that she's one.haha! okie dokie,my head's spinning. i wanna take a nap. *ta-ta*

2009-03-23T22:43:00.002+08:00

the internet connectivity to my room scuk. i swear!haha. it keeps on loosing its connectivity. aniwae,todae i was sleepy in school. tried to sleep in class but i can't. & i alwaes wonder how alex,boon n justin are able to so called 'sleep peacefully' in class most of the time. haha!!*wooppss!!* alrites,will be having chemistry test tis wednesdae. omg!!die man,nuthing goes into my head. like seriously.i cant focus on wat i'm doing. maybe its because sumhow deep inside i told myself that i cant do it. chemistry is not my subject. so,nothing will ever go in..haiya! 2morrow 2.4km fer pe. must jog!jog!i need to burn the excess fats in me.hahahs! owkay,i wanna go back to my chemistry, so tomorrow i'm left with touch up!! *ta-ta*

Labels:i cant wait to go out with u this fridae!!weee..*muah2*haha!

2009-03-22T16:24:00.006+08:00

one week passed very quickly. and i mean VERY QUICKLY. i'hv completed all my assignments but sumhow i feel like as though i missed something. haha! oh man..term two! guess there's more challenges for me to endure when school reopens. in a way or two,i feel like as though i'm slacking. i'm still not into the O's mood when i shud have already. oh my! okay,lets put that aside... tis holiday,seriously speaking i slack. i didnt study much. cum on man,i need to buck up!!!!!!! urrrggghhh!! aniwae yesterday,i went to dzul's pit. met up with zainul,khair,mattin,rafik,siddique and rizq at downtown mac before we headed down to pasir ris park fer the pit. gave dzul brownie as his b'dae present[pathetic i know]. stayed fer a while and made a move after dzul cutted his 'piano'. hahaha! [his b'dae cake duh!] then headed back to ehubwith dzul,mira n aliff[i guess] before i split with them to meet up with cuzzie zila,dayah and one of their tenant. intended to play bowling before we watched movie, but the waiting list was darn long that we just sticked to watchin the movie. watch 'which mountain to race to'. omg!!! i seriously rate 5 fer the movie n i reccomend u guys to watch it.. it gives u the so called a mixture of feelings. thrilling-suspense-funny and sad.. cuzzie dayah was hungry after the movie so we headed down to simpang bedok. sis nad also joined us fer supper. more to breakfast i guess?haha! had some western food before we headed home okay,i wanna watch tv. *ta-ta*

2009-03-19T23:17:00.003+08:00

todae is 19th march.& 19th march is......DZUL'S B'DAE!! happie b'dae dzul,may u be blessed with health & wealth. i'll meet up with u and the rest this saturday awites:D

TASKED COMPLETED: ~ACCOUNTS ~CHEMISTRY ~GEOGRAPHY ~ENGLISH[PARTIALLY] TASK YET TO BE COMPLETED: ~MATHS[VECTORS,AMK N .... PAPER] tsk.tsk.tsk.. time flies. it seems like as though yesterdae i went bowling with qian hui and all. but its already back to the weekends and school is reopening . bet it's gonna be even stress,7 months to my O's..

2009-03-18T19:17:00.006+08:00

been pondering...

loads loads LOADS LOADS LOADS LOADS LOADS LOADS LOADS LOADS LOADS LOADS LOAD'SA THINGS ARE ON MY MIND my mind is in a whirl. i wished i had sumone to turn to n confide in, but i see no one. i'm on a brink of a nervous break down. i need time to mull things over n sort things out. i just need that 'pillar' to lean on.

2009-03-17T08:17:00.003+08:00

yesterdae,had the malay mock examination. o.m.g!! hard was all i cud sae. it was expected because seriously my language has already rusted. i dun know wat the results in the end wud be. all i know is i'hv done all that i cud. & suprisingly,while i was on the brink or giving up the paper, i remembered wat mr ong said "u reap wat u sow"... and that kept me going.haha! then after school,went to central with majidah n hanani. later in the afternoon,went to TEKKA with mum to get the pelamin stuffs done. after which came home,i watch tv fer a while before i fainted till this morning where mum woke me up to help buy croissant at sheng shiong. people ordered but she forgot to buy it yesterdae. so i walked to sheng shiong ALONE[very akward]haha! but there's none to be found... mum's going to jb later with pak cik. okie dokie,i wanna do my homewerk so i can enjoy my last few daes of my holidaes later. *ta-ta*

2009-03-14T01:13:00.001+08:00

**i look fat sia!!ok wait.i AM FAT!!

on thursdae, after school went fer the olympiad thingy. cud'nt get the 9 people.. mr tan was kinda pissed.but fer a while. i became the camera women. haha!mcm paham.lols.. it all ended ard 5.20pm n i was supposed to meet shikin at bugis at 6.30pm!! i rushed myself home. but still,i was half an hour late. sorry shikin!hehe. todae... ouh ya.received my results slip. my results?okay.average. thank god no underlines!hahas! after school,went home. tried. had a short nap before i got ready to meet hanani,majidah,qian hui n jia hui.. while i was ironing my clothes, a modelling agency called n told me whether i cud.............u know. haha!have yet to decide whether i shud go or not..lols. aniwae,had two rounds of bowling.fun man!! hahahs.as usual. LONGKANG IS MY FAVOURITE SPOT! bowling ended about 8?? then accompanied hanani to break her fast at maconalds where we met rizq n his frends. after which,went to coffee bean to play card games n slack. reached home ard 11+. tired. watching thailand ghost show. *ta-ta*

2009-03-10T21:34:00.002+08:00

Todae,school was as usual. physical lesson,we ran outside. obvious that my stamina dropped.haha! had assembly.after school had accounts meeting. been wondering why do i feeling like eating something the whole dae? it's like been tempting me to chew-chew-chew. all i know now is,i wanna eat! hahahs!!but im controlling myself cos if i dun,i'll be at the losing end myself. its easy fer one to get fat but it ain't easy to lose the fat(s) yeehaa...completed my c.p already. hehe!hopefully 2morrow i'll go study with hanani yeah. yeah!!2morrow will be having the fire drill. woots!! lols. *ta-ta*

2009-03-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

Well,yesterday was sunday. as usual,help out at mummy's shop. had two wedding places. i was the drivers accomplice[as usual] .mum then went to jb in the afternoon with pakcik,grandma n isham's family. had wedding inviation over the other side. then,around evening i went out with a small group. had a few rounds of bowling. omg! i was like making a fool out of myself or rather shud i sae i was humiliating myself in public. all my balls went into the longkang! n wats more,i had FOUR GAMES! hahaha! after that,went to eat before the group headed down to marina at keppel bay. we all went by cars. stayed there chit-chatting.camwhoring.teasing n many2 more. had lotsa fun! was sent n reached home around 11.30.... was sleepy but i had fun. came home,pack my bag for todaes school before i went to bed.. and just as i guessed so,i was sleepy in class. ouh ya,emergency exercise was canclled again. mr rashid said because there's some m.o.e person cuming down if i'm not wrong. then after recess,it rained non-stop even wen school ended. i & hanani was like "jogging" to the block next to the school. haha! wanting the rain to stop,me & nani scrolled around shop n save. but it still didn't after a long time. so i was like half drenched went i reached home. okie dokie tat's all folks [guess whose favourite quote?] hahaha! *ta-ta*

2009-03-07T22:27:00.002+08:00

well,2dae started out by having breakfast with hanani n yayoi. walk as we eat. haha! then we went to bukit merah view fer our cip. omg,the bus driver took a veri3 long way to get therelah. n summore he got us lost. he could have just gone by PIE n go by CTE. but the bus driver went by SLE,KPE then CTE.omg!! owkay,the two houses that i visited was kinda scary. the first house,the aunty was so fierce. i was like errmm..... then the second house the uncle was fierce at first,but he turned out frendly in the end.. then otw back sis nad asked me to meet her fer bowling but i refused. was tired,so i took a nap. woke up n got ready fer the wedding banquet. sheese...boring!! not much food were served.okay. i'm tired *ta-ta*

2009-03-06T20:18:00.004+08:00

can i give up CHEMISTRY??

I SWEAR I SCUK AT IT!

it's true wat mr ong said.

"if u see no meaning in chemistry,u will not learn"

i know i cant give it up,

cos its combine science n if i were to,

it's gonna pull down my grades.

but i LOVE physics though n i depend alot on it.

oh my!oh my!

okie dokie.

wednesdae

had my physics test.

thursdae

went home straight after school.

met hanani at 6 to study.

but in the end we turned out talking most of the time wen we are supposed to be studying.

then we had swensens after studying.

hahas.

it was raining when i left airport.

was drenched by the time i got home.

well,tomorrow will be having c.i.p

going to the old folks home at bukit merah.

but before that maybe having breakfast with my gerlfrend,hanani.

weee...

can't wait fer tomorrows dinner banquet at lagun sari.

its been so long since i last went for a wedding invitation.

lols,being random here.

i'hv got nuthing left to sae.

*ta-ta*

2009-03-04T01:32:00.000+08:00

cant sleep.

just finish doing my malay homewerk while listening to mystery jam dua belas.

seram lah beb!!

ermmm...let me share with u sumthing.

in da morning,i was tying up my hair in the toilet as usual.

then wen i opened the door,i saw him outside standing next to his bike..hahahs.

i was like "eeerrrmmmm" before i headed up to the balcony to checked if i was dreaming.

lols,it was true infact,he was outside...

i ain't dreaming!!hahahs....

after school,had accounts meeting as usual before heading to ava room fer my cip...

alot turn up for "house bunny" as compared to "twilight".

very weird huh.

*giggles*

okay2,i wanna take a short nap before continuing with my physics later.

[will be having a test later in the afternoon*tsk2*]

*ta-ta*

Labels:"Nurul,nak tumpang nurul?"hahas.

2009-02-27T17:27:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae,went to west coast to eat before sending fud to atok. the western food there was superb!! superb-not-nice!! wasted my eleven bucks just like that.... atok was in da mosque when we went to sent him the fud. so had to wait fer him. hehehe,i asked ayim to allow me to drive. as the road was quiet n "empty" but ayim was reluctant. n after much persuasion,ayim did gave me the opportunity to drive...fun!! i cant wait to get my license next year.. preferably bike ferst before car. Early in the morning,walked with takeda to school as usual. accompanied her to sheng shiong. she told me she wanted to get sum stuffs fer our "picnic" later.haha! then as i was walking to the class fer morning assembly,saw Mrs Wee!!!! had a long talk with her.lols. i told her that she has lost weight n she said yes she did,from 80kg to 60kg!WOW! that's amazing.lols. then mr muhammad announced that the firedrill exercise was postponed to 9 march.. hahahs,there goes takeda's "picnic". after silent reading,had accounts. it was the last lesson with mr tan. ouh ya,mrs wee joined in the lesson too!! he recaped every topic that he thought us in front of mrs wee, in cased we lied n said that he didn't taught us anithing..hahahs.smart arse!! then had chemistry.did practical as usual. mr ong said that he'll return the test papers back next week. oh my!that chemistry test??sure FLUNK!! english,all we did summary. cos most of them wen off to sell the movie tickets n i guess madam azlina saw no point in continuing the lesson. had recess before maths. after school straight went home. came home,took an hour rest before i cooked fer the family....like after so long!!hahahs. wun disclosed wat i cooked fer the family ya.. later u guys drool..lols! then watched tv. went fer my 10minutes runs,agility,vertical jump,verpies n leg race..... now here i am blogging.. im tired.i mean VERI. guess after this i'll have my shower before i head to my LA-LA land. that's all fer now i guess *ta-ta*

2009-02-26T14:38:00.003+08:00

okay,todae did my maths test in da morning followed by geography later in the afternoon. maths test was like... n i was almost on the brink of a nervous breakdown! heh.fake sia.lols. geography?? i just junked everything that i knew. then received my accounts test back..heee..contented! todae homewerk is piled up.. like finally.... shuts!bill is here n its costly as usual.oh god! it makes me wonder,how cud it be??*shake-head* i dun use that that much...*sigh* alritey!heh??is there ani such werd in the dictionary??ahahahahas. i wanna tak a short break before getting down to task. *ta-ta*

2009-02-25T22:25:00.000+08:00

okay,todae had my accounts test.

english test was postponed again to next mon.oh my!

aniwae,my accounts test??

hahahs,dun ask me about it,all i know is i did wat i cn afford to.

been wondering,y this week has been a bad luck for me??

i dropped my phone mre than ten times in less then one week!

once in school during pe,almost into the TOLET BOWL!but phew,it didn't went in.

wat was most irritating is,i'hv been receiving weird late nite calls n smses.

ALL OF UNKNOWN NUMBER!!

n late nite means 1-2 in da morning

where almost everyone is sleeping like a log a.k.a pig.

including melah!hahahas!

then i had a bad running nose which keeps on occuring in da morning,afternoon n night..

everyday without failure n tis situation is driving me crazy..hah!

n tis week too,i feel so sleepy wen i get home frm school,

no longer hardwerking as i was last week..

if tis goes on,failure would be the result.

coffee didnt werk.

n i wonder y wen it usually does.

nah..mayb the new coffee is no gud.

hahahs.i mean it has a low wat.wat of caffine..lols.

tomorrow will be havin maths n geography test.

currently taking a break from geography.

was contented with my last test results even though its not high as majidah's.haha!

hopefully,i'll improve on my last results.

or even,just maintain it.i dun ask fer much.:D

ouh ya,before i go off to continnue with my geography,

yesterdae,i just happen to pass through felicia chin's blog[refer to links]

was unexpected.lols.

then,that SYAH SABRINI or SAMRONO or WATEVER,

the FOURTEEN YEARS OLD DESPORADO

whom i told u guys about during my werk,

added me in facebook.

he's never giving up,dunno y!!

URRRGGGHHH!!

*ta-ta*

2009-02-23T16:27:00.003+08:00

Okay,todae was as usual in school.

nothing special.its just that,tis week there's lotsa test:

accounts+english+maths+geography..

*sigh*

but u know wat??

its okay!TWO weeks to my holidaes...yeeha..

Aniwae,this fridae was supposed to fly over again but instead,told mum i'll fly over during the one week holidaes,so i can have a longer stay with mak long there.:D

haish.matrix??heh..driving me crazy.

lols.yippee!!!another piece of gud news.ayim is cuming back!!will be having so called "reunion dinner" at east coast tonite.haha!

okie dokie,i wanna try to change my blogskin

*ta-ta*